LETTERS FROM LEAF

#turninganewleaf

These are all of the letters I wrote while I was inside. I wrote these letters to my friend in an email form so that he could post them to my Facebook account and to let my fans know as to what was going on with me. Learn my story. Check out my letters and see what my life was like behind bars in a Federal Prison. I have included the comments of my fans as well to show the huge support. My friend would email me their responses and they helped me get through the hard times. There is something really special about the feeling like you have a huge a cheering section. Behind those cement walls you feel very alone and forgotten at times. So please take a look at my life. Read the letters. Perhaps they can inspire you to do better in your life.

Letter from prison #1
What’s up everyone? Well I have finished my first week. I got uhm……..does it matter? I have a lot more weeks to go. I am scheduled for release on October 17th 2014. I did however sign up for a drug and alcohol program which would allow me to only serve 9 months incarcerated, and 6 months to follow at a half way house. So please keep your fingers crossed for that.

I have to admit, the days are long here. I am still learning the ropes and adjusting to this lifestyle. Breakfast is served at 5:30am….that is usually the time I got home!. So my body is taking some time to adjust to this schedule. I am sure I ll get there soon.

This place is not what everyone was telling me it was going to be like..”Leaf don’t worry, you are going to club FED” F U!!! This place is nothing like Club Fed!!! I only get to talk on the phone for 15 minutes, and if I want to call again, I need to wait a whole hour before doing so. I can only talk 300 minutes per month!! That is nothing!! They want us to communicate with our relatives, yet they make things so difficult to do so! What do they think this place is, a prison? Oh never ask if you can have someone fluff your pillow…just don’t do it!

Seriously, the first three days were hell. I wasn’t in the system so I could not make contact with anyone yet.. Now things are a bit smoother. I FINALLY GOT A BELT!!! I have been asking for a belt since day one and today I got one…a week later! Its amazing how the little things mean so much to you in here.

In here the races are divided. You stay with your own. They have 4 TVs up in the main area. The each are set to a radio station that you can only get with a purchased walkman. So in order to hear the TV, you must buy a $45.00 Sony Walkman. I did get one and find myself watch BET with a lot of the brothas in here. The white people are watching crap like Keeping up with the Kardashians and Shawshank Redemption (which is one of my favorites, till I got here and lived the movie). The Mexicans have that Telemundo going….gotta admit…not a bad channel, I mean if you are into tits and ass.

I have been working out a lot with my new white friends. These guys are crazy about their work-out. On my fourth day here, the only thing that did not hurt was blinking. I am going to be coming out of here looking like Ed Norton from American History X if I keep this up…which I will, cause there is nothing else to do.

I miss going outside. There is no yard here due to the fact that we are a 13 story building. Our yard is a balcony. I am located on the fifth floor so if that gets you an idea of my yard.

Well I just wanted to send to you guys my first letter. I will send one every week till I am released. Please, if you have the time, write to me. I will write everyone back that does write me. It makes a huge difference when you receive a letter from someone on the outside. Makes you feel like you have not been forgotten. You can find my address on my “ABOUT ME” page on Facebook.

I would like to thank Rickie Holley, Cheryl Anderson, and my mom and dad for their letters. I will post everyone’s name that wrote me in my letters to thank them.

Well, I should be cleared medically soon so that I can get a job. I ll let you know how that goes in my next letter.

Thank you everyone for your continued support. I miss you all.

Until next week,

LEAF

Living Everyday Always Free

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    Dennis Gaxiola You can do it bro – stay strong!!!
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    Joe Rocha …sSs…B.O.P.E….
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    David L Peters thoughts are with you, keep writing jokes, I am sure you are getting more material!
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    Naomi Mackey very good to hear from you sugar! Ive missed your silliness on here glad to see you havent lost it!! Letter in the mail… Chin up!!

     

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    Rick Pulido I think I told you , You will NOT do the two years. More to come. Oh and one more thing, you will get out of there so different you will barely recognise yourself and I mean in the most positive way.
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    Melanie Chadwell You are so humble to share with us. Can’t believe that the pedophiles in my neighborhood get away with an their picture on a website and they made room in the prison system for you. Wow.
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    Aman Wyzdom Smith Good to hear u are doing ok man, keep ur head up! Stay focused! And
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    Aman Wyzdom Smith We will see u again real soon
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    Janelle Murphey 😦 miss you! Happy they aren’t giving you a hard time, I was scared after watching locked up! Omg I got a new job and I work wt one of your friends! She’s really funny. Well I miss you and I will send you letters no that I know I can. Love you my brotha! 😀
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    Randy Licht Leaf what ever you do while showering there…if you drop the soap…dont bend over to pick it up! :-%
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    Green Goblin Stay up Brother Leaf!!

     

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    Vol Wellner Good luck….hope to seeya at the end of the year!
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    Will Garrett Prayers and positive vibes to you man!
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    B.a. Hunter Can we send you stuff?? If so how and please let’s us know, because I and the rest of your comedic Fam would do it in a sec.
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    Gina Gramenz Castro sending you love and healing vibes

     

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    Rick Foster They should change the name of that Spanish channel to The Awesome Breasts Channel, With Midgets…
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    Lisa Walters Glad to see that nothing has dampened your sense of humor! Thanks for making me laugh this morning!
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    Gwendolyn Shreve Pol I am glad you are seeing the humor in your circumstances. Thanks for sharing and keeping us updated!

     

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    Rickie Holley I miss you everyday and can’t wait for you to come home xoxo

     

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    Michael Calvin Jr Keep your head up sir!!
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    B.a. Hunter When you get out U and Michael Calvin Jr are gonna play the title roles in My HeadHunter Production reboot of 48 hrs.
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    Michael Calvin Jr We only do Woody Harrelson and Wesley Snipes movies B.a. Hunter lol.
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    Jeromy Smirnoff Eat, workout, sleep, sleep and sleep. repeat 270 times (with a little luck) and you’ll be the most ripped, well rested comic in SacTown, bro. Head up mane!!!
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    Kimberly Stevens Glad to hear your doing well I will be sending a letter soon. Keep your head and those pants up tighten that belt buddy hahaha lol sorry had to say it!
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    Trisha Porch Hang in there. You are in our thoughts and prayers daily. Will write soon!
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    Amber McKean Palma Glad to hear your hanging in there my friend. I will send you a letter soon.
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    Wendy Jacobsen Garrett My son wrote you a letter last night, even though you haven’t met its really cute! Will get it in the mail soon! Hang in there
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    Kristen Frisk Christensen The scene isn’t the same without our Leaf. Keep working out the way you are and we’ll have to change your name to Beef…miss ya buddy.
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    Dakota Brandon Were can I get the address to mail Leaf? ?
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    Rickie Holley Under his about me on his Facebook

     

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    Julie Cantrell I think if you get selected for a half-way house, you actually have to give up the learf, Leaf… Still, two down and still kicking. Yay!!! Remember, if you keep them laughing they’ll be off on their aim and that’ll give you a chance to run. Hang in there!

     

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    Jason Vasquez Your Badd Ass yo! Respect…

     

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    Jennifer Baird wow… when I first read this I thought it was another outlandish joke. I see it must be true from the comments in response. .Well from another… who works inside most of the time… let our imaginations set us free to roam in the sun. Always choose happiness! its a decision you make to be happy. God loves you.

    Letter from prison #2

    What’s up World?

    It’s your boy Leaf broadcasting from the bowels of hell!
    Well two weeks down, and 90 more to go. I have lost about ten lbs in this place. Some of it is from me working out daily, and some of it was from this terrible flu I had. I had it bad. Four days of fevers, sweating, shaking, coughing, dying, and aching. I tried to see the doctor and they told me that there was no medication, and to just ride it out. This is my healthcare!!!

    At night, when they do count, the giuards shine a flashlight in your face to count that you are in your cell. This happens about 5 times per night. Well, when I was sick, I thought I was dying, and one night, I saw the light…and I thought it was Jesus taking me home….but it wasn’t…it was just Hector, making his count.

    I feel much better today. Today I am to start my new job….I work in food service, PM shift. I get paid I believe, wait for it, wait for it,…..40 cents an hour! Going to start saving up for a new truck.

    Valentines day is coming!!! Are you excited? Its funny because I know if these guys in here were out there they would be like, “Fuck Valentines Day” but when your in prison, they turn into these little bitches…hahahhah They are making very elaborate cards, and fake flowers, ….it is like a big arts in crafts place in here.

    All in all, I am slowly getting use to this place. I have my down times. However, I find the strength to get through it. I hope time goes much faster once I get to work.

    I have been writing, and reading and working out…that is pretty much my program. But like I said, today I should start my new job. I have some new jokes that I am excited to share with the world. Can’t wait for you guys to hear them.

    I have been receiving your guys’s mail. Thank you so much for taking the time out of your day to think of me and write me. I truly appreciate it. When I hear my name at mail call daily, I get excited. It is funny how the little things in life, mean so much when everything you love in your life has been taken from you.

    I miss my girls tremendously. I lay in my bunk every night remembering our time at Disneyland, a trip that you guys helped us go on. I am forever in-depted to you.

    Well, that is really the only update I have this week. Please, keep writing. They mean the world to me.

    I want to thank Gwen Pol, Steph Dwyer, Mom and Dad, Brenda Goings, and Abigail for writing to me. Rickie, I miss you. And to my best friend Teague, who is manning my facebook, this means the world to me. For those that do not know, Teague has been helping me out and allowing me to read your comments after each of my weekly updates.

    Well, until next week guys, keep laughing, and keep chasing your dreams…no matter how old you are! NEVER ALLOW ANYONE YOU CAN’T DO SOMETHING!

    I love you guys, and miss you all tremendously.

    LEAF
    Living Everyday Always Free

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      Twine Livity no prison fights yet? no fools getting shanked up?
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      Kat Dooley Glad that you are over the flu. Keep your head up.
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      Rickie Holley I miss you so much too babe! I’ll see you soon
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      Lisa O’Farrell Glad that he is better.. being sick sucks.. but when you have no healthcare and guards who don’t give a shit sucks even worse.. keep your head up..! Congrats on the job… wow… a whole 40 cents?? Damn…
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      Vol Wellner Write write write…..right?
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      Holly Pfeifer Dude!! I miss my pal next door!! I’m seriously lost without you!!!you better keep working out buddy !! Your gonna need it for the next time I see ya cuz I’m not going to anyone else!! Your the best. Hang in there pal:-D
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      Gavin Myers Stay strong Leaf! It may seem to pass slow, but before you know it you will be back with your girls killing crowds with all your new shit!
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      Daniel Catrell Dugar Hey brah, dont EVER get used to being in there…write, write, write…keep a journal. .who knows…something inspiring and great van come from it…If possible see if you can do a show in there ..better yet work on writing youre “One Man Show” about youre life in that place and make it serious but funny….peace and Blessings. …FOCUS. ..
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      Ceann Lithun I love reading Letters From Prison!
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      Rayleen Long Teague, message me his address please! Thank you :]
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      Teague Mayfield Hi Rayleen -Just click on “About” on his Facebook page and the address is listed there.
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      Rick Foster Be careful what you say, some prison men especially like innuendos…
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      Amber McKean Palma Your thoughts and letters are great. I know all of us appreciate your letters and hearing how your doing as much as you appreciate hearing from us. I can’t believe 40cents and hour. but I guess when you dont have much to buy in there that is a lot. lol…. Glad to hear your hanging in there.
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      Angie Esparza Glad your feeling better. Hang in there Leaf, keep your head up and stay strong! You’ll have a packed house when you home back!! 🙂
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      Chuck Franciscus That’s terrible about being sick and not being treated medically. Prison serves NO PURPOSE at all and they treat everyone the same regardless of the severity of the crime. Its inhumane as hell. Hang in there bro.
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      Oneinamillion KayKay Thanks for the letter! Glad to see you’re surviving the depths of hell..🙂
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      Amanda Bonham Glad you are well despite the circumstances. You know you have support always up here. Keeping laughing and smiling!!!
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      Green Goblin Haven’t forgot about u brother. My letters coming soon
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      Michelle Wilbur how does he get or allowed to be on facebook or on the Internet? someone explain this to me thanks

      Letter from prison #3

      What’s up world, its your convict comedian report LIVE from PRISON!!

      First and foremost, I really need to thank you all for your support. I have been receiving so much mail from you guys!!! I have ran out of stamps and will get more tomorrow, so if you have written me and have not received a letter from yet, do not panic. It is coming. It takes awhile to get mail because they have to open up every piece of mail and read them…nosey bastards, so all you guys and gals that are sending naked photos…please stop… you are embarrassing yourself.

      As for me, I started working….I am one of the four cooks they have here. I cook for 1000 inmates….in big ass pots!! It is my job to insure that the food tastes good for all of the inmates. Then once we are finished with our job, our boss cooks for us….and I mean meals that no one else eats…like Kung Pao Chicken, Teriyaki Chicken, and a whole bunch of other food that is made like restaurant style…not prison style…and there is a difference! The only thing I do not like about the job is that I start at 5am…..that is something I do not think I am going to get use to.

      I just found out that I am having my interview today regarding my transfer into the drug and alcohol program. If I get accepted, I get transferred to a different prison, and will be there for only 9 months, released to a halfway home in Sacramento for only 6 months. So please pray. And for my fans that run that Halfway house…please send me any information on that as I would like to go somewhere where people know me.

      I am slowly still trying to adjust to this place. Just a couple of nights ago was the first night where I slept through the entire night without waking up….I was pretty excited for that. Because once you wake up in here, it is extremely hard to get back to sleep.

      I am still on a strict work out regiment. I have to date lost a total of 15lbs. I know a lot of people have been trying many different diets, and have been working out so hard to achieve little results. My suggestion to you is go do a crime and go to prison…best life changing weight loss program out there. It is better that stomach stapling! 15lbs in three weeks. CRAZY!!

      I have also been writing a book. Why not. I have titled it “Funny Thing Happened to Me On My Way to Prison” Prison life through the eyes of a comedian. It is going to be dope. I have really been dedicated to it. A good mentor in my life by the name of Daniel Dugar told me…”Never get use to that place…write…everyday write…write jokes, write a play, just write” Well Mr. Dugar, I have listened and the advise has paid off. Thank you sir. Ill see you in Japan soon!

      I am so grateful to each and everyone of you. My fans mean so much to me. I truly see how I have effected so many of you. It makes me happy knowing that so many of you care and are taking the time out of your day to write to me. Thank you. You have no idea how valuable you are to me. I will be back soon, on stage with a lot of new material for you guys. My return show is going to be amazing. I visualize it every day. You guys have not seen anything yet. Be ready…I am turning a NEW LEAF!

      Rickie…..not much more I can say that you already do not know. So I’ll keep it simple. One day you are going to be known as Rickie Comedian…You have been by my side through all of this and you are continuing to be there. You have shown me so much more than I had expected….Thank you! You are my breath…..I need you!

      I miss my kids sooo much. I do not get to talk to them everyday. In fact I have only gotten to talk to them only four times. I have limited minutes on the phone. They only allow us to talk for 300 minutes per month. I have only 15 minutes left until the 28th. But they have been sending me coloring book pictures, and I received a letter from my daughter that she wrote all by herself. It is very hard after I talk to them. It breaks my heart that I can not be there to comfort them or to help them with their school work or to just laugh and play with them. That is what I miss the most. I miss Barbie dolls….weird I know it but do not judge me…that is just the kid of dad I am.

      Well, I better go. This one has been a long one. I miss all of you guys, and please keep the letters coming.

      I want to thank Steph Garcia, Rich Brockman, Alison Reichert, Gwen Pol, Rickie Holley (Valentine Card), Michelle Davila, Kevin (K.C.) Carbajal, Janelle Murphy, Steph Dwyer, Christina Ibarra, and of course my mom and dad and my two daughters Ameliya and Ayriana. Thank you for your time and support.

      Until next week. For more of Leaf subscribe to my blog at www.leafthecomedian.wordpress.com

      LEAF
      Living Everyday Always Free

      Living Everyday Always Free – LEAF
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        Rickie Holley Thanks my love! I wouldn’t change anything… you are my everything and I can’t wait for you to come home and we start our lives together!!! I can’t to be Rickie The Comedian..Lol xoxo
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        Michelle Shelley D you are so cute girl!
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        Rickie Holley I meant can’t wait to be Rickie The Comedian*
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        Jessica Seivane Blessings. I hope it just keeps getting smaller and smaller.
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        Jeffrey Peterson Miss U Brother…Cooking is a wise way to stay fed. Stay strong Brother. What is the address to write to?
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        Teague Mayfield The address is on his FB page under “about”
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        Burnin Merni Thank you so much for updating us and I am so excited that you get to eat good food and now it sounds like an early release just like I thought you would get!! Good Vibes coming your way!
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        Dupree Thatfool Parker I told you so!!! Food way better than state I’m a co in a state prison any way keep ya head up man your in our prayers
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        Janelle Murphey They read them?!
        Hope you didn’t get in trouble for the page I wrote about roofies lol

        Letter from prison # 4

        How is it going everyone?

        I hope everyone enjoyed their long weekend. Mine was the same as last weekend, and the same before that.
        Well I have been here for 4 weeks exactly.. Just 20 more to go. It is starting to pick up faster. Time seems to be going a little faster and everyday get a bit easier…however, I still am not use to this place and do not plan too.

        My day starts at 5am every morning. I am one of the cooks. Now before you think I have an easy job, you need to slap your face. This is prison. Nothing is easy. they make a simple job like cooking food into some manual labor bullshit. First of all I am incharge of cooking 1000 dinners everyday! And I have 4 big ass pots to my disposal. Now when I say big ass pots, I mean big ass pots! You can fit three Oprahs in these pots!! Seriously…and when I have to cook taco meat ort enchilada casserole or beans…it takes so much muscles to stir, ground, stir again, and then clean the damn thing after. And everyone in my housing unit knows that I am the dinner cook so I nervously wait to see them eat it. Most of the times the like it, however, we did run out of seasoning the other day and I got a lot of dirty looks. I just decided to stay in my cell for the night.

        So like I said my day starts at 5 am everyday, then I get off of work around 1pm. I go back to my housing unit where I begin my work out until 3pm. Then after 3, I take my shower, and then we are locked up into our cell from 3:30pm till 5:30pm in which is the time to eat. Then at 6pm on Tuesday and Thursday some of us play 3 on 3 basketball on this little ass basketball court that is on this balcony. You see I am on the fifth floor and they kind of gave us an outside area to go outside…but really it is just a large balcony.

        As of now I have been accepted into that program. I am ion the waiting list for a transfer!! So that is some good news. Once I get transferred then I have to do my 9 month drug/alcohol program then upon graduation, I get transferred to a halfway house in Sacramento. So the sooner I get that transfer, the sooner I can come home.

        Lets see what else happened to me this week….oh yeah! I attended my first white people meeting. It was actually very weird.. I saw all the whites go into a room, but I was watching basketball…so I stayed down in the rec area…then I heard the whites yell out my name and told me to get my ass up there. So I got nervous…I wasn’t sure if I was to bring sheets with me or what. So when I got up there they were all in a circle…and they told me to come inside the room. I freaked out cause I was the newest white guy…I thought I was getting initiated! I about pissed myself. But it was not anything like that…just a meeting about some things…I am not allowed to say…..shit is crazy in here. I felt very weird. I do not see color. I have friends of all race, and in here…race is a very divided thing…..

        Not only am I having to put up with the C.O.’s crap but I am also forced to be segregated….I remember someone saying to me I hope you do not come out hating black people…on the contrary…I may come out hating white people!!! (only joking) (maybe)

        Well that is pretty much all I have this week.

        I know there was a holiday and we do not get any mail on the weekends, so mail was very slow this last week.

        I want to thank everyone for the continued support. I truly appreciate it. I have written a lot of good jokes…and am excited for the day you guys see me back on the stage where I belong. I do not belong here. This is not my world. I’m just a visitor.

        I ll be back soon.

        And Rickie…..I am so excited to see you this weekend. Thank you for all that you do to make my time a lot easier. You mean the world to me. You shine so bright in my dark world. Thank you. I ll see you Friday baby girl!

        Ok guys…..Ill send another update next week. Thank you again to everyone! I miss you all so much!

        LEAF

        Living Everyday Always Free

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          Pamela K. Al-Shabazz I’d love to write you, if that’s ok. Shoot me your info in an email. Keep your head & spirits up… Keeping you & the family in my prayers. btw, prison has given you some great new material. lol
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          Melissa Balin Address to write to please? #keepYourHeadUp!
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          Scott Cruz His mailing Address is listed on his page. Just click the “about” link and scroll down. Then u can get the address and write.
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          Nani Keeshan Aww, that made me laugh a little, only because your just funny!! Seams like your making the best of it!! Keep your head up!
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          Erica Johnson well i just heard and that really sucks for you and i wouldnt trade places well maybe with the way crap is going latley for me (thought about it and uhhhh no i wouldnt) wish u were out i could use a good laugh from you
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          Misty Blue So sorry and sad and funny we have this big ass jar of taco seasoning can we send you good products lol… Please tell the Mexicans be cool with you cuz we are FB friends lol tapatio hot sauce makes them happy gonna write u soon keep up head up white boy!
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          Rickie Holley I’m so excited to see you later today! I think of you every minute of every day!!!! xoxo. Miss you so much my love
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          Kimberlee Kline Wilson you sound like you are going to be all muscled out soon…proud of you for handeling ..prayers!

          Letter from prison #5

          What it is?

          Shits been crazy you know what Im saying? I feel like dis place is gettin to my brain yo. I mean I feel like the man is tryin to keep me down…you feel me? I am sayin I dont feel like dis place has changed me too much.

          ok I am joking…

          How is everyone doing? I am doing good. We have a big inspection happening this week so they have been raiding our cells, making us clean shit at work. Just been on edge. People going to the hole…been a little tense in here. But I am managing.

          Someone tell Mike E. Winfield I said whats up? Tell him that we watched him on BET with Kevin Hart on Comic View. The inmates thought he was funny. He just needs some street cred.

          Lets see what happened this week. My girlfriend came down to visit me. We got to spend about 6 hours with each other (3 hours per day). It was so good to see a familiar face, and one so beautiful at that. She really made a big sacrifice in coming down here for my benefit. I appreciate all of her efforts. She is simply amazing.

          I am down 20lbs now, and my bnasketball game is getting a lot better. I play basketball, well 3 on 3 cause that is all the room we have, but I am no longer last to be picked….I am second to last…hahahaha I am playing…I did score the most points on Sunday when we played…I feel lighter and faster. We are playing again tonight. I hope to be picked second or first. Funny how the little things in life mean so much to you while you are in here.

          I get my phone minutes back tomorrow. I ran out of minutes. They only give us 300 per month, and mine renews on the 28th…I was unaware of this. I have not talked to my kids since the 14th. I used the last of my minutes talking to them on Valentines day. I miss their little voices.

          I have my moments in here. I have good days,a nd I have bad days. There are days that go really smooth, and then there are days where everything that I love is deeply missed. There are nights where I lay in bed wishing I could just hold my daughters and have them fall asleep in my arms. I wish I could hold them, tickle them, play with them…just be next to them. It is crazy how much I miss Barbies, and tea parties, and make overs. I just have to remember every time that sun sets, is a day closer I am to going home.

          Coming here has its benefits. It really opens your eyes to what is important. I consider this a cacoon, a transformation if you will. When I get out, I am turning a new Leaf. You will see a new Leaf. Not just my image, but my way of life, and my value that I put on it. I am excited to get out and show everyone.

          Well I want to thank you for your support. I miss everyone. Keep the letters coming please. They really help me in this situatuation. They mean more to me than you can imagine.

          And parents, please tonight, hug your child extra tight. Read to them just a little bit longer. Play with them longer than normal. They look up to you. It is very easy to fall into a trap of working to hard, and getting ingulfed in household chores. They do not understand this. Do not ever allow them to think that there is anything more important than they are. I miss my girls so much. I think back at times, when I could have played a little bit longer with them, or could have read a little bit more to them, but I had to go to a show, or an open mic. I would trade 100 days to see my kids for 5 minutes. Tell your kids you love them. Never leave to work without them knowing how much you love and care for them. Lets get back to family.

          I love you all, and miss you all terribly.

          and remember,

          Live Everyday Always Free

          LEAF

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            Bianca Carson I miss you Leaf!!! Stay strong!!! 🙂
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            Smokie Kush 420 Radio is behind you all the way Leaf!!!
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            Joe Rocha …sSs…B.O.P.E LEAF….a NORCAL MENDO SHOUT OUT To THA LEAF….I Give You More Shouts N Props On www.kmecradio.org …. Keep YouHeadHigh n Your Soul Higher…KaBOOM!

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            Rickie Holley You are amazing too babe!!! It wasn’t a sacrifice at all. I’d do it every weekend if I could. It felt so good to see you and just be next to you! I miss and love you always!!! xoxo
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            Trisha Porch You are amazingly positive. We think about you everyday. Miss you!
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            Amanda Bonham Miss you and your humor buddy!
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            Jennifer Kalender Your A Inspiration 2 Many & Missed Tremendously!
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            Letter from prison #6

            How is everyone doing? I am still here. Six weeks in the books, and who knows how many more. I am still waiting to get transferred to start the drug/alcohol program. Once I get in the program then I just have 9 months left, then 6 months halfway house. The halfway house will be either San Francisco, Oakland, or Fresno. There may be an option of house arrest, in which my girlfriend is making me get. Something about not wanting to spend anymore time without me than she already has to. You know how chicks are….I am just teasing…of course I want house arrest!!

            So we are in the middle of lent. I want to know from all of my Catholics out there. What did you give up for lent? You see I had a struggle with this. I am in prison! I have already given up a lot! I gave up sex, drugs, alcohol, freedom….I mean what else is there. I think God is going to have to work with me on this one. I have nothing else to give up. What do you think?

            The hits keep coming. I was playing basketball last night, you know trying to improve my game, when I came down from getting a rebound and rolled my ankle. I heard a pop and it instantly started bruising. So yeah…I am waiting to see a doctor. These bastards still made me go to work today….I have a bandage on and my boot is tied tight, boy I hope I don’t get in a fight.

            Everything else has been going good. Just been reading a lot. We had a huge inspection in here and they worked us like dogs getting the place clean…it was a nightmare for three days….but other than that, I am still maintaining. I m just reading, writing a lot. Thank you everyone for your letters. They really help me pass the time. I enjoy hearing about what is going on with everyone. I finally got caught up on responding to your letters, so check your mailboxes.

            Well. I think I am going to let you guys go. I cant wait to get home, and get back on that stage. I have a lot to share with you guys…. A lot!!! This can be a very scary place…but you just have to look at it from a funny point of view. I try and do that, and shit is hilarious!! Someone told me yesterday that because his case didn’t hit the statue of liberty, that they still prosecuted him…I was like don’t you mean the statue of limitations? He was like yeah…that one….hahahahahha I always knew The Statue of Liberty meant freedom, but I never saw it that way.

            Ok guys, I gotta run, or limp I should say. You guys take carte of yourselves. This will all be over soon.
            I love and miss everyone.

            Rickie, thank you again for everything you do for me. You are perfect for me, and have made this experience, so much more bearable. I would be completely loss if it wasn’t for you. Thank you

            Teague, thank you for all that you have been doing in helping me keep contact with everyone. Everyone, wish Teague a speedy recovery. He had a rupture ear drum and a bad infection. That is why the letter was late last week. So send him so good vibes. Thank you.

            ok I am outta here. Till next week.

            And remember,

            Live Everyday Always Free

            LEAF

          Letter from prison # 7

          OK, I am sick of this shit!!! I gotta make my own bed every morning, I gotta work at 5 am every morning, except Sunday (because of the Sabbath), and and and, uhm well I guess that is all I have to complain about.

          What’s going on everyone? I hope this letter finds you all in good spirits and health. St. Patty’s Day is coming up…one of my favorite days. I think this will be the first St. Patty’s Day since I was 12 that I have been sober. When you go to the Boxing Donkey in Roseville, tell my boy Sam Bruno I said what’s up.

          On Sunday, I am in a free throw competition because that is what is going on here on St. Patty’s Day.

          I am applying for a new job. I am hoping to get on the Warehouse Crew. They pay a little bit more, and it doesn’t start at 5 am…starts at 6:30 am. That gives me an extra hour to sleep on my very comfortable California King Bed I have. Its funny. I see some of the comments that people write and some think I am just in here living the high life…oh Federal Prison is easy…no problem…that’s all I heard before I left and on the comment…well this place is nothing like I thought it was going to be or what some of you think it is like. Currently there is tension between two races. I cant get into detail, but shit is pretty tense in here right now. Someone told me today at work that I do not fit in…I am glad I don’t fit in. Who the fuck wants to fit in in prison? I’m ok with being an outsider. I just want to do my time and get the hell out of here.

          ok that was my little rant. I really do not have much to report on this week. I am trying to report interesting things for you guys, and let you know how I am doing, however, everything gets read and I cant give out too much information. I will tell you this, I am getting a lot of material. And to all of my Latinos!! I love you guys. You guys are some of the hardest working people I have ever met….and happy! Just happy to be anywhere….they just smile and laugh, and sing!! Happiest people in here are my Latinos. Just happy to be anywhere…anywhere except in front of Home Depot.

          I need to make a couple of acknowledgements:

          Gwen Pol…..I want to thank you so much. You have written to me every week and have kept me in the loop of what is going on in the comedy scene in Sacramento. Your letters do kill time, and I enjoy all the photos you include with your letter. Thank you so much. I truly appreciate it.

          Mike Betancourt: WOW! Your letter had to be the funniest letter I have ever read…in fact the funniest letter the guards ever read….however…please be careful when you write me. I do not need some pissed off C.O. putting me in the hole cause you want to be funny…seriously it was hilarious though…I am kidding…keep sending them…although it was more like a billboard. I have never met anyone to put all of his websites on a letter to advertise himself to the officers….your are a true promoter! FUCKING HILARIOUS!!!

          Rickie Holley: You give me hope. You have helped me in ways that are unexplainable. You are always there for me. You have never judged me. You see me for who I truly am. It takes a strong woman to see someone at their rock bottom and say, “That’s the guy I want to be with” Either that you are fucking retarded..hahhahaha but I know you are not…you are actually very bright. I just wanted to say thank you. You mean the world to me, and there is no way I could do this without you.

          Steph Dwyer: thank you for my emails. You and I have known each other since high school. You are one of my oldest and dearest friends. I can always tell you anything, and you will always tell me what you wan to say. You never hold back, and I love you for that. Thank you for helping me get by.

          And to everyone else. Thank you for your letters. I truly appreciate them. They help me get by. I love hearing my name during mail call. It gives me some reality to the outside world.

          Well Next Tuesday marks my two months since I have been here. It does feel like it is going fast, however, not fast enough. I will be home one day. I will be on that stage again, and Leaf will be better than ever. This experience has changed me…I am making it for the better. I watch BET Comic View, and I have already seen three of the comedians I have worked with on there. I know I will be on that show. I just need to get the fuck out of here.

          Ok, so, please be safe this weekend. I do not want to see any of you in here with me. Designate a driver. I love each of you. Without you, there is no me.

          and remember,
          Live Everyday Always Free

          LEAF

        Letter from prison #8

        What’s up world!! I hope all is well with everyone! Well I am still here! Do not think I am going anywhere anytime soon. But 2 months are in the books! I am excited about that. Every time that sun sets, is one more day closer to being home with my family and girlfriend, and back to that stage. I am having withdrawals! But I am surviving as well I as can. I am learning that I am not a fan of manual labor. Who thought that cooking was going to be so much work? I made grilled cheese sandwiches for over 1000 inmates…and mashed potatoes are the worst…takes a toll on me. I have calluses on my hands!! Speaking of which, my work-outs are getting easier. I mean not easier, but I am able to manage it more. I am running 3 miles a day on a non-electrical treadmill! Yep, like a hamster in the wheel…I just run and it takes count of miles, calories, and time…so I am on that thing before I do my lifting. But to run 3 miles is a big accomplishment for me. I have not been in this good of shape since uhm…yeah I am not sure when.
        Something funny happened on Monday. On Sunday, we made BBQ pork for the inmates dinner for Monday, however we ran out of ketchup, one of the main ingredients for BBQ sauce..so one of the other cooks got ghetto with it and used koolaid, and coffee…..I have to admit, it did not taste that bad, but you could still taste the difference. But the funny part came on Monday after dinner, when about an hour after everyone ate, people were on the treadmill, they were shooting hoops. I mean big people too, the ones that do not work out…they had no idea why they had the urge to burn off some energy. Nobody could sit still! And they had no clue why they had so much energy!! One guy yelled at a guard cause he did nt have anything to do…shit was hilarious. I saw dudes on the treadmill that had never been on the treadmill EVER…talking about..man I do not know why I am on this damn thing, but I think it is a good time to start!..hahahahha shit was funny.
        I hope everyone enjoyed their St. Pattys Day. I hope no one got a DUI. I do not want to see any of you guys in here with me.
        Thank you all for your comments on my letters, and for my mail. I truly appreciate every and all forms of communication. Gives me hope. Lets me know that you guys still care about me. I really appreciate it.
        The hardest thing about being here is not being with my girls. I do not get to talk to them everyday because I have to be safe with my 300 minutes per month allowance. It is very diffuclt. But we manage. they send me arts, and letters. I do the same for them. I miss them so much it hurts. I can not wait to get home to them. They need their Papa so much!
        Well, that is really all I have for now. Thank you Teague for doing this. I know you are busy, and Happy Anniversary by the way! I hope you have fun in Seattle.
        Rickie, your man misses you more than this letter will allow him to tell you. Thank you so much for all of the letters and photos. You are truly Gods gift to me. You have helped me out beyond my imagination. I can not wait to get home and make it all up to you!
        I will see everyone soon. Keep the letters coming. I love you all!
        And remember, please,
        Live Everyday Always Free

        LEAF

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          Jim Gover With that positive outlook, this brief set back poses you even stronger for your return and even greater come back!!
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          Jennifer Baird i work too much 108 hrs a week .. so a decrese is in the future. they cant keep your mind behind bars You live free up there.
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          Errol Coder Glad things are going well for you man! I know it can be tough at times, be we are here, and will still be till you return!
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          Burnin Merni I was just thinking of you and missing your updates!
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          Rickie Holley I miss you more everyday babe! I also can’t wait for you to come home to me and our kids. We are going to have an amazing life! And you are so very welcome for everything. Thank you for all you do for me while you are in there. I need you just as much as you need me!!! xoxoxoxo
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          Stacey Patterson Sam and I miss you lots. Can’t wait for you to come home.
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          Rick Pulido I live by “Live the Moment” We are all given some shit to get over and some of us learn from it and come out stronger some just waste the time and sit there till it’s over. Your body is there and you are seeing it gets stronger (on the outside you woulSee More
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          O.j. Young Wussup Leaf The-Comedian I’m lookin forward to comin back I know when you get back you’re goin to have a shit load of material LOL and I know you’ll be smashin every mic you get on can’t wait ..stay strong bruh

          March 21, 2013 at 9:22am · Like · 1

          Letter from prison #9

          Hello world,
          Its your funny convict here doing my weekly update with you guys. With Easter upon us, a family holiday, I must admit my mood is very mellow. The holidays I feel are going to be the hardest days during this experience. This will be the first Easter away from my kids. Easter at our house was always a fun day. My girls would wake up to find their Easter baskets by their beds…After they opened their baskets, we would eat candy til our tummys hurt. Then we would get ready for the family to come over. We always had two egg hunts. One for the kids, and then one for the adults. The adults had plastic eggs filled with a shot of alcohol, or jello shots. So much fun.
          I miss my girls tremendously. More than I thought I would. It just feels like a part of me is missing.
          I do not see how people can make a career out of being a criminal…I dont even want to ask for a water glass at a restuarant and get SPRITE anymore! Prison is a very lonely place. You are surrounded by people whom you would never hang out on the streets with, people you do not trust, and people that are just retarded. I can see how some of these guys got caught. They are not very bright at all.
          I miss life! I miss listening to music that I want to listen to. I miss wearing clothes that I want to wear. I miss taking a walk, or driving somewhere. I miss taking a shower however long I want to. I miss dancing. I miss going to the movies. I even miss fast food restaurants. Little things that I use to take for granted, like talking on the phone whenever I want to and not having to wait an hour to make my next call. I miss my girlfriend. Just being able to talk to her when I want to talk to her, I miss that so much.
          I am not saying this to make you feel bad or sad for me. I am telling you this, because I want everyone to appreciate what you have, and stop complaining for things you do not have. My eyes are opened and I just wanted to share with you guys what my mind and heart feels. Again, Easter is this Sunday, and I miss my girls so much!! I just wish I could hold them for 5 minutes….I just need five minutes.
          I hope you all enjoy your family this weekend. Tell your kids you love them, and hold themn extra tight this weekend.
          I miss you all so much. Thank you for listening. I truly appreciate all of your support.

          Rickie, I miss you. I know this is hard on us, and I know this has not been an ideal situation. But you are an amazing woman. You lift me up when I am down. Thank you! I would be so lost without you. I truly appreciate you and everything you stand for. Thank you.

          Remember,
          Live Everyday Always Free
          LEAF

          I love you guys!

           

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            Misty Blue Ughhh so sorry you are going through this. Stay strong, pray, and keep your spirit hopeful. This too shall pass!
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            Hush Riss OH MY WORD BROTHER LEAF, I HAD NO IDEA. PRAYING FOR YOUR MENTAL AND EMOTIONAL STRENGTH. I LOVE U MY COMEDY&LEO BROTHER. BLESSINGS&PEACE
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            Kristina Janeé 🙂 Good stuff! Will do, thank you.
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            Rickie Holley I miss you so very much! And you are very welcome for all I do for you. You are an amazing man and I couldn’t imagine my life with out you! Try and keep you head up babe… We will make all this up to the girls when you come home xoxoxo
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            Dan Romero I’ve been there brother and feel ur pain keep ur head up snd stay far away from the clowns….
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            Jason Vasquez I promise I will right you soon, I have been really busy, I know its no excuse, but im trying to make you proud.. Stay Up & Never Down…Miss ya Homie…!!
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            Ken Shames hang in there Leaf

            Letter from prison # 10

            Double digits bitches!!!

            That’s right! I am in the double digits on my wonderful stay here in this beautiful 4 star resort called PRISON.
            How is everyone doing? I have had a pretty interesting week this week. I ll just highlight the moments that stood out.

            So last week some guy cut his balls off with a razor, placed them on his locker and told the C.O. that his balls are on his locker…blood everywhere! I think that guy is NUTZ! Seriously, how the fuck do you cut your balls off? You have to have a lot of balls well uhm ok maybe not a lot of balls to cut your nuts off, but you have to be fucking nuts to do that.
            With that and the stabbing we had, I realized that I am no longer in Kansas, however it does feel like OZ.

            Being a cook has its privileges. I do eat better than most of the inmates, because during lunch my boss will make us some awesome meals. I also get to make sure that the food in here is up to my standards before it gets sent out. With that being said, EVERY Sunday, some of the inmates get hard boiled eggs. They are the inmates that have special diets, like diabetic issues or cholesterol problems. SO being that it was Easter, I thought it would be a great idea to bright up the spirits of the inmates…so while the eggs were boiling I took a bunch of red kool-aid packages and through them into the water hoping to make the eggs red….well the red did not stick, however it did turn the eggs pink. So it was hilarious to see these big ass strong inmates eating fucking pink eggs during lunch on Easter Sunday! So funny!

            Now on Good Friday, the day Jesus was crucified, as Catholics, we fast. I have to tell you that fasting is not easy for me. As you all could see, I loved food. And working in the kitchen was even harder to fast. But I did it! So that night, Friday Night, we had catholic mass, and we had communion. I was sooo hungry I asked the father, ” Would it be possible to have another piece of “The Body of Christ” please…I think I need more Jesus in my life father!” He smiled at me and said Bless you son…but greed is a sin! hahahahahhaha

            Easter was a very difficult day for me. It was the first holiday that I have experienced away from my girls. It was very hard. I just miss them so much. But every time that sunsets, is another day I am closer to them.

            Thank you all for allowing me to share my experiences with you. I am another week closer to coming home. Please keep the letters coming. I truly appreciate them all and I will write back to every letter I receive.

            Rickie, we grew closer this week. We have proven that together we can accomplish anything and grow stronger from each of our experiences. I am extremely lucky to have you in my corner. I am also very thankful. God knows what he is doing and I see it. Even though I am in here I still feel like the luckiest guy in the world, and I have you to thank for that. I miss you and I’ll be home as soon as I can.

            Well, until next week guys. Make sure you keep smiling. The world needs them. And remember to always,
            Live Everyday Always Free

            LEAF

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              Heather Morales I got to the end of 1st story before I commented. I’m really glad everything is working out. The inmates & pink eggs. Now that’s classic.
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              Holly Pfeifer One day closer is right. I’m so happy for you that you found an amazing person to help ease this!! Hold your head up. Hope you get your ass out of that shit hole soon. My shoulder blades miss ya;)
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              Misty Blue Stay strong! Love reading your updates.
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              Julie Cantrell Duuuuddee. I’m gonna have to fact check that balls story. What’s that guy going to do now…he has NO balls! Or, did the generous taxpayers of our great nation pay to have them stitched back on? If they did, I think that’s wrong. If you don’t take care of your toys to begin with, then you just don’t deserve them. Hang in there!
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              Tim Deckard The ball story is nuts bro be safe Lol!!
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              Kathy Smith W T F ??? I swear, I was just saying to myself the other day…I said, “Self, what the fuck happened to Leaf? Is he locked up or something?” (Actually, I said “knocked up” but now I realize this makes much more sense) Bob and weave my friend, Bob and weave! 😀 Want I should bake you a cake?
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              Rickie Holley God created us for each other. We hold each other together. We grow closer everyday…I miss you terribly and can’t wait for you to come home! xoxoxo
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              Rickie Holley The guy that cut his balls off must be facing life and knows he won’t be using those anymore. Fucking psycho!!! Hahaha
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              Holly GriffinDamn, my nuts hurt just thinking about cutting them off, and I don’t even have any! Loony Bastard.

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              Letter from prison #11

              What’s up World?

              SO I have had a pretty good week. Although I am typing with a broken hand, things are going pretty good.
              I just found out that I will be transferred soon! I will be going to Lompac where I will do a 9 month drug program then after that 6 months in a halfway house. It took a lot of fighting on my behalf but this goes to show you that if you want something bad enough then you work hard for it and it will happen. I had to fight against the warden of this facility. She had denied my drug program meaning I was to stay here until my release in October 2014. But I fought and fought and I fought the law and I won!
              SO I may be leaving here in a few days or a month who knows, but the good news is, I am leaving. This place is nothing but a holding facility for inmates on trial. I do not belong here. So I am pretty excited about this victory. This means I am so much closer to my girls. Once I do the 9 month program, I can request for home arrest for my halfway house time. Either way, I am so much closer to getting home to my girls. Everything about the new place is better. There will softball leagues to keep me busy, football leagues, to keep me busy, OUTSIDE YARD where I can run and not have to use a treadmill! I am very excited and can not wait to close this chapter. So Sacramento…I am coming home! Ill be there sooner than originally planned. BE READY!!!

              Also I would like to invite everyone to Tommy Ts next Wednesday the 17th. A good friend of mine, Michael Calvin, is putting together a great comic line up to raise money. Portions of the proceeds will go to my fund. That money will be used towards my daughters. I would like to see that place packed. I am doing a LIVE call in around 7:45pm, so get there early. I would love to say hi to everyone and tell some jokes!!Do not be late…I only get 15 minutes!!!!!

              Thank you to everyone for all of your love, and support. I truly appreciate it!

              Rickie, daddy’s coming home…you better be ready too! ;0) Thank you for helping me through all of this. I cant wait to get home to take care of you. I appreciate you and everything you are. love you girl!

              Ok to everyone else,

              Be there Tommy Ts April 17th Show starts at 7:30pm with a LIVE call in from me Leaf the Comedian at 7:45pm
              Thank you to all the comics that are on the bill. I appreciate it.

              And of course, remember to,

              Live Everyday Always Free

              LEAF

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                Holly GriffinI missed how his hand got broken. Lompoc is so much closer to visit. Rickie, can anyone go visit him, after the background check or whatever? Is there a limit on the number of visitors he can have? I wouldn’t want to take any time away from you or his family.
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                Holly PfeiferThat is such great news for you, your girls and Rickie!! Way to fight the fight and win the battle.. Megan and I miss ya!! And take care of that hand:-/
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                Rickie HolleyI can’t wait for you to come home babe! Trust me…. I’M READY FOR YOU!!! This news made my day. Love you too! xoxo
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                Rickie HolleyHolly Griffin he broke his hand playing basketball. Yeah I think he’s only allowed a certain amount of approved visitors but I don’t know what the number is. But Lompoc is no closer then where he’s at now. They’re both a little over 6 hours.
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                Krista BurtonThats great news!
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                Sour DieselCongratulations! That is fucking awesome.
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                James LinnThat is friggin great. With the rehab, I’ve done it before. Really you’ve already done it where your at. Just keep doing what they ask. Your in the home stretch. You’ll be home soon.
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                Candy LannHe didn’t say how he broke it. At first I thought it was from fighting with the warden, but he used the word fighting as a figure of speech…lol
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                Rickie HolleyCandy Lann he broke it playing basketball. Lol
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                Candy Lannoh that sounds much better:)
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                Rickie HolleyHahaha. I’m pretty sure if he broke it while fighting with the warden his transfer and early release would of been denied. Lol
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                Candy LannNo I know…he just went from breaking his hand, to having to do a lot of fighting and then to fighting the warden….I knew what he meant, I was bein a smartass like always:)
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                Gwendolyn Shreve PolCan’t wait for Wednesday!

                April 15, 2013 at 11:09am · Like · 1

                Letter from prison # 12

                What’s up world?
                Another week in the books!
                First I would like to say a special thank you to Michael Calvin for putting together a fundraiser event for myself. I heard all of the comics did a fantastic job. Thank you also to the comics that came out to share their talents. I truly appreciate it. The money that was raised was given to my daughters to do something fun with it. So I know they appreciate it alot. I have had numerous request for people to raise money for me. I want to thank you for thinking of me, however, I do not want people creating charities on my behalf. Though my crime was committed helping people, I do not want to be rewarded for being incarcerated. If you feel the need to raise money for me, please raise money for St. Judes Children’s hospital. they are a hospital that could use any and all donations. They treat children with cancer regardless if their parents have the ability to pay or not. It is a great organization and one that I donate to often. And if you would like to donate to a local charity I would suggest either Loaves n Fishes, or The UC Davis Children’s Hospital, all of which I have also raised money for in the past. If you do decide to do this, please attach my name with the donation and make it from both of us. That would make me feel really good. I would rather raise money for people that need it rather than someone doing time to put on his commissary book. If you really want to do something nice for me, then all I ask is for a simple letter. That’s it…pretty easy. Letters bring me back to a time when I was not in here. It gives me a small escape from my reality. So if you truly feel like doing something for me, then just write a letter. Maybe you can have a bucket and have people donate letters to me. That sounds awesome!
                Second, I would like to apologize if you attended last weeks show for myself. I was to do a live call in. The show was suppose to start at 7:30pm, so I called in at 7:45pm to my surprise the show had not even started yet. I guess I forgot to wear my black watch. I should have known better. I mean, Michael Calvin is black and a stoner…so I should have called around 9:00pm. I did however get to talk to some of my comedians in the green room. I miss every single one of you and was great to hear some familiar voices. Thank you again. In this world I am living there are a lot of unfamiliarity, so anytime I get to see, read, or hear anything that is familiar it brings me comfort.
                Currently I am just sitting here still waiting on my transfer. I am to go to Lompac soon. Just a matter of days. The only thing I am worried about is during the transport, I have to go through a prison named Victorville. While I am at Victorville, I will be placed in the hole SHU ( Special Housing Unit- the hole) for up to two weeks for my protection. It is to keep me safe. During those two weeks I will be contained in a cell with a one hour rec per week and no communication. I am going to go crazy in there!! But it is just another step to getting me home to my girls and that is all I keep thinking about.
                Once I get to Lompac, then within a week I should start my drug program. hahahha Leaf the Comedian in a drug program…this shit is going to be hilarious! The program is 9 months long, then we finish on a Friday, then I go to my halfway house the following Monday. the halfway house will be in the bay area. I will be there until I get my home confinement so probably a few weeks, but the important thing is once I get to my halfway house, I will be allowed weekend passes. I ll be coming to Sacramento on the weekends until I get my home confinement. I heard I have a very sexy warden at my home confinement. I am excited to meet her!
                SO Sacramento, I am 9-10 months away from getting home. A lot better than January 2015. I would go crazy here if I had to stay that long here. This place is fucking weird!
                Well this has been rather long….thank you again to each and everyone of you for your continued support. It truly means a lot to me.

                Rickie…Daddy’s coming home. You have been my rock when I need strength. You have been my crutch when I needed support. You are and will always be my everything. I love you with all of my heart. Thank you for just being you.

                To the rest of you fuckers…….I ll be home sooner than you know it…..BE READY! My comeback show is going to be crazy stupid fun!

                Remember to always,
                Live Everyday Always Free
                LEAF

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                  Krista BurtonGlad your doing well! Take care!!
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                  Rickie HolleyI heard your home confinement warded is pretty tuff so watch out… She likes to use handcuffs and have her way with you! 😉.
                  You are my everything as well babe! I miss you so much and can’t wait to come see you after your transfer. That no communication during the transfer is gonna be a very long, hard 2 weeks for me. I love you with all my heart! xoxo
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                  Michelle Shelley DRickie Holley tell Leaf that I almost cried reading that one. Okay I sort of did.
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                  Rickie HolleyI will Michelle Davila he’s so amazing!!!!!!
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                  Michelle Shelley DWe need to get together sometime!!!
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                  Rickie HolleyWe definitely do!!! 🙂
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                  Stephanie M SorianoPraying for u & your family!
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                  Stacey PattersonYou have such a good heart!!! We miss you!!
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                  Comedian Michael GabrielPLEASE get me an address so I can send you my book on James Earl Ray. Its in diary form based on the daily journals I kept when I visited him in prison on a daily basis for the last 6 months of his life. I am a publisher so I can usually sent it to priSee More
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                  Rickie HolleyThe only way he can receive books is if they are ordered through Amazon and shipped directly to him from them. I would wait for his transfer to insure he receives it. Hopefully he will be transferred next week. Im sure he would love to read it Michael. I can order it through Amazon and have it shipped to him if you would like for me to?
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                  Holly GriffinThat sucks that he will have to be in the hole for 2 weeks, but it gets him closer to home, where he belongs. Yay!!!
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                  Rich BrockmanCan’t wait to see ya bud. I mean seriously, I was gonna rob a bank just so that I could get to spend some time with ya

                  Letter from prison # 13

                  What’s up everyone! Missed me?
                  Well, I finally made it to Lompoc. I got here on Monday and I am just getting settled in. I have never been so excited to be at a prison than I was on Monday! This place is a lot better than where I was. I saw a blind man here, but he didn’t see me. What the fuck did he do? Rob somebody blind? (insert drum roll and symbol clash here) If a blind man can make here, then I got this!
                  In case you missed it, the last two weeks I was in the hole at a Maximum Security Prison in Victorville, CA. It was the United States Penitentiary. I was kept in my cell with another cellmate 21 hours a day! We got out for one hour, three times a day. the food was crappy and time moved at a snails pace. It fucking sucked. Getting of the bus at this place made me realize that this place was not playing around. We each had to get off the bus one at a time. And when we got off the bus there was two snipers pointing automatic weapons at you while you walked to the wall shackled. Thats when shit got real! I almost pissed myself when it was my turn to walk. So many thoughts went through my head. I kept hoping the snipers didn’t sneeze, or hoping none of them have turrets. I am not going to lie. I was scared shitless! When it came time to leave to come to Lompoc, shit got a little crazy, but was hilarious. Here is what happened:

                  I told my celly not to eat the chili the night before. They chili was fucking wrong. But he ate it…then about an hour later he told be his stomach hurt and that he is sorry for whatever it is that he is going to do….I was worried….for myself!
                  This chili fucked his stomach up!! He would not stop farting! He was trying to hold it in because we were stuck in the cell. And he started sweating then yelled at me, “How do you get so much air in your stomach?” hahahahaha
                  So they drug us out of our cell at 3:30 am to get us on the bus to Lompoc. We had to change out of our prison clothes into even more prison clothes for the bus ride. They put us in these orange jumpers, but before we could wear them, we had to get checked for contraband. They took four of us at a time and brought us into the changing room. We all lined up and were ordered to strip naked. then we had to wiggle our fingers, wiggle our toes, open our mouths, lift our balls, turn around, squat, and cough while squatting. When we squatted and cough, my celly blew ass! It was so powerful that the cop’s hair on his head who was checking him, literally moved!!! Fucking crazy. That’s when I said, “You are such an over-achiever man…the guy just wanted us to cough but you gotta one up us and show off!” We were dying laughing.
                  So after that, they put us all into a waiting cell. then once all 40 of us were ready it was time to shackle us. Well someone was either pissed off at me or made an error. The black boxed me, which means I got double shackled and this black box put over my handcuffed wrists. Apparently they do this for prisoners that have a history of escaping! I have never been to prison…what history do I have? While being black boxed the cop that had is hair blew back by my celly said to me, ” I bet you are not laughing now” I told him, I think you’ve got the wrong guy.” He answered and I quote,” I don’t make mistakes, You hold the tail, and I ll fuck the donkey” I replied, “I don’t even know what that means?” “Are we going to Mexico, cause I have already seen that show but it was a chick” I asked. Everyone started laughing. Now I didn’t mean to make him look dumb, but I realized that he has the power to make my cuffs even tighter than the needed to be. Lets just say that was a very uncomfortable 6 hour bus ride!
                  But I am here. I made it. the weather here is beautiful. The first day I was here I stayed outside so much. It had been almost 5 months since i had been outside. I was turning invisible. I swear I think I could have seen my heart beating.
                  But I am here. I am getting settled in. I started my job today. I ll tell you more about my job and where I am at on the next letter. this one is quite long already.
                  At the end of this letter, I will give you all my new address so that you can write me and send me pictures. I love mail so I hope you all will send me something.
                  Next week I ll tell you more about where I am at and what I am up to now. I am in a much better place. I ll tell you that much now. Thank you all for your continued support.
                  Rickie- 9 more months baby! Thank you for always being there for me. I know it was a rough two weeks but we are growing stronger together. I ll be home soon and we can close this chapter and begin writing a new one. I love you.

                  Again, thank you all for you support and i hope to hear from you soon

                  Remember, to always
                  Live Everyday Always Free
                  I miss you guys!
                  LEAF

                  William Troy Goings
                  67749-097
                  Federal Prison Camp
                  3705 West Farm Road
                  Lompoc CA 93436

              Letter from prison # 14

              What’s up everyone! Missed me?
              Well, I finally made it to Lompoc. I got here on Monday and I am just getting settled in. I have never been so excited to be at a prison than I was on Monday! This place is a lot better than where I was. I saw a blind man here, but he didn’t see me. What the fuck did he do? Rob somebody blind? (insert drum roll and symbol clash here) If a blind man can make here, then I got this!
              In case you missed it, the last two weeks I was in the hole at a Maximum Security Prison in Victorville, CA. It was the United States Penitentiary. I was kept in my cell with another cellmate 21 hours a day! We got out for one hour, three times a day. the food was crappy and time moved at a snails pace. It fucking sucked. Getting of the bus at this place made me realize that this place was not playing around. We each had to get off the bus one at a time. And when we got off the bus there was two snipers pointing automatic weapons at you while you walked to the wall shackled. Thats when shit got real! I almost pissed myself when it was my turn to walk. So many thoughts went through my head. I kept hoping the snipers didn’t sneeze, or hoping none of them have turrets. I am not going to lie. I was scared shitless! When it came time to leave to come to Lompoc, shit got a little crazy, but was hilarious. Here is what happened:

              I told my celly not to eat the chili the night before. They chili was fucking wrong. But he ate it…then about an hour later he told be his stomach hurt and that he is sorry for whatever it is that he is going to do….I was worried….for myself!
              This chili fucked his stomach up!! He would not stop farting! He was trying to hold it in because we were stuck in the cell. And he started sweating then yelled at me, “How do you get so much air in your stomach?” hahahahaha
              So they drug us out of our cell at 3:30 am to get us on the bus to Lompoc. We had to change out of our prison clothes into even more prison clothes for the bus ride. They put us in these orange jumpers, but before we could wear them, we had to get checked for contraband. They took four of us at a time and brought us into the changing room. We all lined up and were ordered to strip naked. then we had to wiggle our fingers, wiggle our toes, open our mouths, lift our balls, turn around, squat, and cough while squatting. When we squatted and cough, my celly blew ass! It was so powerful that the cop’s hair on his head who was checking him, literally moved!!! Fucking crazy. That’s when I said, “You are such an over-achiever man…the guy just wanted us to cough but you gotta one up us and show off!” We were dying laughing.
              So after that, they put us all into a waiting cell. then once all 40 of us were ready it was time to shackle us. Well someone was either pissed off at me or made an error. The black boxed me, which means I got double shackled and this black box put over my handcuffed wrists. Apparently they do this for prisoners that have a history of escaping! I have never been to prison…what history do I have? While being black boxed the cop that had is hair blew back by my celly said to me, ” I bet you are not laughing now” I told him, I think you’ve got the wrong guy.” He answered and I quote,” I don’t make mistakes, You hold the tail, and I ll fuck the donkey” I replied, “I don’t even know what that means?” “Are we going to Mexico, cause I have already seen that show but it was a chick” I asked. Everyone started laughing. Now I didn’t mean to make him look dumb, but I realized that he has the power to make my cuffs even tighter than the needed to be. Lets just say that was a very uncomfortable 6 hour bus ride!
              But I am here. I made it. the weather here is beautiful. The first day I was here I stayed outside so much. It had been almost 5 months since i had been outside. I was turning invisible. I swear I think I could have seen my heart beating.
              But I am here. I am getting settled in. I started my job today. I ll tell you more about my job and where I am at on the next letter. this one is quite long already.
              At the end of this letter, I will give you all my new address so that you can write me and send me pictures. I love mail so I hope you all will send me something.
              Next week I ll tell you more about where I am at and what I am up to now. I am in a much better place. I ll tell you that much now. Thank you all for your continued support.
              Rickie- 9 more months baby! Thank you for always being there for me. I know it was a rough two weeks but we are growing stronger together. I ll be home soon and we can close this chapter and begin writing a new one. I love you.

              Again, thank you all for you support and i hope to hear from you soon

              Remember, to always
              Live Everyday Always Free
              I miss you guys!
              LEAF

              William Troy Goings
              67749-097
              Federal Prison Camp
              3705 West Farm Road
              Lompoc CA 93436

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              Ashley CravenWhen we gets letter back does the “return address” need to be on there? Stupid question I know! But Iv been wanting to write a letter but if my roommate who has power over the mail box key sees it says federal prison she will be the 1st one to judge and kick me out no question asked

              Mario A. Montes

              Mario A. MontesHang in the Brother n thanks for the address update!

              Krista Burton

              Krista BurtonKeep up the good spirits!

              Chadd Beals

              Chadd Beals@ashley yes it does and maybe you could use someone else’s address

              Amanda Bonham

              Amanda BonhamWe love you Leaf The-Comedian. ….keep trucking and conquering the nonsense. Hugs friend

              Twine Livity

              Twine Livitylmao… its good to see u are still finding humor even in your situation right now…. keep ur head up bro

              Ashley Craven

              Ashley CravenChadd does it say federal prison or can those words be left out? The actual address is fine

              Julie Cantrell

              Julie CantrellLeaf, that was an AWESOME letter!! I was laughing so hard that I started to cry. Then my kids (10 and 13) wanted to see what was so funny, and I had to pull it together and put on my mommy hat. I can’t have them thinking that I am this amused by prison letters. You have no idea the length to which they will go to make me laugh. I can just see it now…

              Holly Pfeifer

              Holly PfeiferHang in there pal:)

              Rickie Holley
              Rickie HolleyI love you too babe! We got this… What’s nine months when we’ll have forever together. I miss you terribly and will be there soon to visit.
              I LOVE YOU!!!! xoxo

              Holly Pfeifer

              Holly PfeiferYou hang in there too Rickie:)

              Jason Resler

              Jason ReslerDoes a.letter need to be in a pre stamped envelope? Or regular stamps ok?

              Rickie Holley
              Rickie HolleyJason Resler Regular stamps are ok.
              Thanks Holly 🙂

              Jason Resler

              Jason ReslerOk cool, thanks. I feel bad I haven’t written. I haven’t been home two days in a row in two months.

              Janelle Murphéy

              Janelle MurphéyYou are awesome Leaf! I love and miss you buddy!

              Holly Pfeifer

              Holly PfeiferYou bet cha. You’re one strong chick. Much respect

              Rickie Holley

              Rickie HolleyHe’s one amazing man… He makes it easy for me to be strong

              Holly Pfeifer

              Holly PfeiferAwwww 🙂 I hope these 9 months zoom along for you guys

              Johnny Tennyson

              Johnny TennysonGlad u made it smooth sailing now I will Wright soon I am still in half way house tell June 15 then my 13 years with the fucken feds r done finely. I was leafs first Celly and he was white as a ghost when he came in but he got his crerry pop real quick setteled in real quick leafs a good man keep looking up

              Rosa Floyd

              Rosa FloydI enjoy reading your letters.

              Chiquita Maria

              Chiquita Mariaomg so funny about the chili why did he eat the fuckin chili???? Pendejo lol glad to read you are in a better place. Stay strong.

              Letter from prison #15

              What’s going on everyone?
              I hope this letter finds you all in good health and spirits. As I am writing this letter, I am battling the flu. It has been going around here very badly and I knew it was only a matter of time before I caught it. But I am hanging in there.
              On Friday, I will find out if I made it into the Drug and alcohol program that got me sent here to Lompoc. It isnt a guaranteed deal. They take about 120 inmates and put them in an isolated camp and they put them through a rigourios program. It is designed to change the way you think and act. It is an attitude reform camp with teachings about drug and alcohol. It is a bootcamp style environment with many rules. They even pair you up with someone that is suppose to hold you accountable. So if for example I walk on the rocks and my partner saw me walk on the rocks then he needs to hold me accountableand tell on me during group. If he doesnt tell on me and he sees me, and someone else tells then we are both in trouble. It is a snitching class. This can add a lot of extra stress that I do not already need. Of 120 inmates, they say about 80 or so will complete the full 9 months. If I do not complete it then I have to go back to the regular camp and finish out my full term which means I may not be out til January 2015. But I need to do this for my girls. Leaf the Comedian in a drug and alcohol bootcamp. Should be very interesting.
              So I am in Lompoc as I stated last time. I am at the camp and it has its ups and downs. The weather here is a coastal climate so there is always a good breeze. Only problem is the sun will burn you. I see black people getting burned out here. I never even knew that was possible. So you can imagine how I looked after a few days of being here. I looked like Patrick from Sponge Bob Squarepants!! I feel like I am living in a zoo. There are racoons around everywhere, skunks, snakes, gophers,a nd I even had a vulture look like it was going to attack me. I was laying down reading a book and this fucking vulture landed right by me. I had to move cause I didnt want him to think I was dead.
              The scenary is awesome. We are on top of a hill looking down over some vineyards.
              My job is pretty cool. I work at the Air Force base. We do a lot of detailing and fire prevention. So I like the job cause it makes me feel a bit normal. We catch a bus in the morning at 7:15 am and go to the base where we are dropped off at our base and then we get our assignments then we work til about 3pm and then we go home. After that I ll eat dinner then work out and run my 3 miles OUTSIDE!!!
              There are a lot of guys here from Sacramento and two of them remember seeing me perform in Sacramento. I thought that was pretty cool. They are trying to get me to do a comedy show so I agreed and they are putting it together. Should be fun. Got a lot of new jokes I want to try out anyways.
              I joined Toastmasters which is a speaking group. I have my first speech in 2 weeks and I am to do an Icebreaker speech. This is going to be a lot of fun. I am going to be talking about my experience in prison up to date. The class is going to be blown away cause everything I am talking about is written like a comic. I am using Toastmasters as my open mics. hahahahaha! Might get a little uncomfortable for them, but a lot of fun for me.
              I am doing well. Some of your guys’ mail is starting to trickle in. Thank you guys for you r support. I really appreciate all that you do.
              I want to give a special recognition to the hottest girl on the planet. You are so beautiful inside and out (keep it clean guys). I truly am the luckiest man alive…and I am in prison!! Thank you Rickie for everything you do. I ll be home in 9 months. I love you very much.

              Well gang. That is it about me. Sorry this one isnt that funny…I just feel like shit right now and aI am not even suppose to be on the computer. When you are sick here they write an order for you to stay on your rack. Anyways, I miss you all and I hope to see you guys really soon.
              Take care
              and remember to
              Live Everyday Always Free
              Leaf

              W.Troy Goings
              67749-097
              Federal Prison Camp
              3705 West Farm Road
              Lompoc, CA 93436

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              Krista Burton

              Krista BurtonHope you get better soon! Stay strong!

              David Heinig

              David HeinigI will write you leaf!

              Mario A. Montes

              Mario A. MontesIll drop u a line Buddy! Get well.

              Kristi Haldeman

              Kristi HaldemanPrayers that God gives you the strength to complete your mission

              Lee Marty McCaster

              Lee Marty McCasterglad u are staying strong man.. i been laggin on writing u but if u can get ur word out from where u are, i have no excuse not to do the same for u bro

              Rickie Holley

              Rickie HolleyThank you for all you do too babe! I love you more xoxo

              Jessica Seivane

              Jessica SeivaneYou’re so awesome Leaf! Rickie is so wonderful and its sweet to see your love pour out to her. You both deserve this love and you will be a part of that “80” who passes because your priorities are in the right place. Your daughters and Rickie will appreciate it for life. Sacramento cannot wait for your return. Hope you feel better soon.

              Janelle Murphéy

              Janelle MurphéyHappy you are doing well! Can’t wait to see you again friend! Time will fly! 😀

              Trisha Porch

              Trisha Porchthinking of you n we miss your smile!

              Paul Vlahos

              Paul VlahosLeaf you are an amazing person and deserve a smooooth easy ride till youre out- and I know you will have that!

              Heather Morales

              Heather MoralesIt’s great to hear from u!

              Letter from prison #16

              Hello to everyone that can read this.
              First let me start off by wishing all of the dads out there a be-lated Happy Father’s Day! I hope you got to spend the day relaxing and being loved by your kid(s). I actually got to see my daughters!! They came to spend Father’s Day with me. I wouldn’t say it was the best Father’s Day, but I did appreciate the fact that my parents took their time to bring my girls down to see me. It was such a bitter sweet. Though I got to see them and spend some good quality time with them, I again had to say bye to them and again leave them. It was very emotional and has stuck with me still. I will never get the image of my girls crying for me and asking me to come with them as they cried. I have the image of my youngest daughter crying, Bye Papa” as tears rolled down her face. I will never forgive myself for having to put them through this. They are my motivation to get through this and to get home as soon as I can.
              The very next day on Monday, I was shipped over to the Drug treatment program. I have to be honest with you. The first day, I though I was going to quit. This is intense, this is extreme, and it is extremely difficult. I can not get into details, but this is THE hardest thing that I have ever had to go through. I would rather have my teeth pulled one by one while midgets with baseball bats beat me in the shins. But as I am typing this to you, I am making a promise to everyone that is reading this. I WILL NOT QUIT! Quitting is not an option. I will complete this and get home in March so that I can get to my girls whom so desperately need me. I have a great support system and an awesome girlfriend in my corner helping me get through this. I know without her, I would have quit by now. But two days are down! I officially have less than 9 months left. If I left the program and did not complete this program, I would not get out til October 2014, and if I fail the program, or get removed, then I get out January 2015. As you can see, failing is not an option.
              So cheer me on. I can use all the encouragement I can get. I miss you all so much. I will be home soon.
              Rickie…all, I can say is thank you, and those two words are more valuable than a whole paragraph of other words. You have been here for me since day one and you continue to be my support! I could not do this with out you. Thank you, thank you, THANK YOU! I ll see you in less than 9 months babe. I love you.
              Thank you to everyone for your letters of encouragement. I truly appreciate them. I have so much homework, but I will try and stay on top of writing back. It is only fair that you took time to write me, so I must do the same in return.
              Oh yeah, Here again, is my new address:

              William Troy Goings
              67749-097
              Federal Prison Camp
              4000 Victory Road
              Lompoc, CA 93436

              Take care of yourselves, and take care of each other. Keep laughing. Life is hilarious!
              and remember to always
              Live Everyday Always Free
              LEAF

              Julie Cantrell Leaf, you have EVERY reason to beat this, and not a one to quit! One day you will look back on this and know that you are stronger than you knew that you were. What an opportunity to turn this to your advantage and make a better life for yourself and your family. You got this!! (No need to fact check that; I know it is true!) Prayers of blessing you and all of your family!

               

              Matt Raymond

              Matt Raymond Miss that fuckin guy…

               

              Holly Griffin

              Holly Griffin I’ve been slacking on the letter writing, will get one out in the next couple of days. Peace & love to all of you, Leaf, Rickie, the girls, and the parents

               

              Heather Morales

              Heather Morales It’s hard times for you now but you are strong and will concord this battle! You are determined!!!

              Letter from Prison# 17

              I just realized that there are two letter 15’s so because I am so different then we will not have a letter 16 and just go to letter 17. Is that cool for everyone?

              Well, how is the world on the other side of the fence?
              It has been a long time since my last letter. As you know I am in that drug program. It is funny how I spent so much time and effort trying to get into this program and now I want to get the fuck out of it!!! Becareful what you wish for!!! It is a very hard and very intense program. It is more of a behavioral modification program than anything else. And everyone that signs up for the program does not complete it. In our group we have lost 4 guys already out of 26. There are 6 other groups in this program as well that have lost people. The way it works is like highschool. Group 43 are the senior members. They have been here for 8 months and are on their way to graduate. Group 44 and 45 are like junior members, group 46 are sophmores and have been here for two months and then there is my group, group number 47 who are freshman. And we keep makiing mistakes. There are so many rules here and when someone points out a mistake that you have done they tell you “You forgot to tuck in your shirt, I am going to have to hold you accountable” Then they go tell there big brother about you and so now you have to tell your big brother and then you have to apologize in front of the whole community for not having your shirt tucked in, or not having your pillow laying correctly, or forgetting an assignment in group…yadda yadda yadda. Well lets just say I have already had to apologize 8 times and I have two more to go. Never knew snitching was ok in prison. This is a whole new world. There are guys in here that have been in the maximum security prisons that are signing out cause they cant handle this. I want to make a shirt that says, SNITCHES GET STITCHES RDAP 2014! hahahaha
              It is just weird and it takes a lot to get use to. I am adjusting finally. The senior members dont like me cause I am funny and trying to make this program a little bit lighter for the guys that are going through this. I have a mohawk and someone wanted to hold me accountable for it, but they couldnt because it isnt an accountability issue…so SUCK IT!
              On top of being targetted by the seniors, we have group meetings and comittee meetings and small grouop meetings and meetings to have a meeting….this is suppose to be a 500 hour drug program, but it is 24 hours a day, 7 days a week. It is bananas!! And in these groups we have the counselors just ripping us a part. Their belief is that if you do not see the bad in you then you will never know what to fix. Here is an example: On day two in group we were asked, “Who in here is a good dad?’ Of course I shot my hand up….like an idiot. Then the counselor started in on me…”So what makes you such a good dad?”
              I began to explain everything that I do with and for my daughters and I thought I was doing good until the counselor said, ” Let me cut you off… Where is your daughter at right now?”
              “At home”
              “Where are you at?”
              “Uhhm in here”
              “That is right, you are in here, in prison. You cant even play with your kids right now if they wanted you to. You are going to miss Christmas, and their birthdays and thanksgiving. What are they going to be thankful for. Dont you think they are sad when they see other dads picking up their kids and you are not there to pick them up from school? Are you providing for them? SOund to me you have abandoned them?”
              This went on for a half an hour or so…just drilling me. I will never ever raise my hand for anything now. I walked out of there so god damned confused. I had no idea what just hit me.
              But the point they are wanting to make is that we all had a choice in some point in our life. I chose to do what I did and I made that decision without thinking about the consequences and making the choice over my childrens needs. Then they dig in deeper and want you to bring up all the bad things that happened to you as a child so that they can see how you became to think like a criminal and how to change that thinking…..GET ME THE FUCK OUTTA HERE!!!!
              But I am staying strong and really trying to stay positive. Listening to this for 8 hours a day plus having to work makes you really start thinking you are a piece of shit. But they are going to break us down, then help build us back up. I have only touched a little bit on what goes on here.
              Oh and my job got switched. I will never make fun of mexicans and landscapers again. Karma has bit me in the ass hard! For my job I am in-charge of landscaping for ffour houses in the C.O. Housing area. That means I have to mow the lawn, weed eat it, water the plants, and use a loud blower. I cant even go to Home Depot for help.
              But it is what it is.
              Well thank you to everyone for their support. I know this one is a long one. I just had a lot to say.
              Well I am running out of time on the computer. We only get 30 minutes at a time so I better send this off.
              I love you all and hope to see you guys soon.
              Rickie baby! You amaze me in everything you do. You are everything and more that I have ever wanted. Thank you for always being here for me. I love you.
              I ll talk to you guys soon. I have so many new jokes…..get ready! I ll be out March 21st when I graduate this muthafucka!!
              Live Everyday Always Free
              Leaf

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              Jimmie Dave Menezes

              Jimmie Dave Menezes good to hear from you Leaf. stay strong. see ya soon.

               

              Krista Burton

              Krista Burton Stay strong and as positive as you can!

               

              Kimberlee Kline Wilson

              Kimberlee Kline Wilson stay strong.. and just think.. you have a whole new career as a gardener… how is your tan? Prayers for you buddy.. you can do this!!

               

              Rich Brockman

              Rich Brockman Better not give up my name in one of those sessions!

               

              Jimmie Dave Menezes

              Jimmie Dave Menezes now you know why landscapers stuff is crappy; they’re always working on other peoples’ yards

               

              Rickie Holley
              Rickie Holley I love you too babe and know you can get through this!
              xoxoxo

               

              Abigail Charis Nagengast

              Abigail Charis Nagengast Stay strong! You are a great dad! This is just a really hard time but it will be over soon and you will be back with them for good 🙂 Miss you and your jokes. Just remember how much you are loved

               

              Chiquita Maria

              Chiquita Maria You can get through it and come out so much stronger because of it! Yeah that working in the hot sun is no joke right? Love my Mexicans they are hard ass workers:-)

               

              Amanda Bonham

              Amanda Bonham Keep the smiles up Leaf The-Comedian. 🙂

               

              Barbara Peel

              Barbara Peel Amen !

              Letter from Prison #18

              What is going on world?
              I heard I received a lot of birthday wishes from you guys!!!! Thank you so much for the love! As I sit here in prison on my birthday I have come to realized that I have so much to be thankful for. I have my beautiful daughters that are waiting ever so patiently for me to come home so they can put make up on my face and play barbies and get one of them ready for college. I have two very good friends that always check up on me to make sure that I am doing well. I have a very supportive family that loves me unconditionally. And I have a very caring and loving girlfriend who doesnt see a man behind bars, but sees the man of her future. It is easy to try and list all of the negatives as I sit in here on my birthday, but looking at all of the positive things in my life makes me feel a lot better. I have learned to appreciate all that life gives and to appreciate the little things that come to you. I can feel sorry for myself and point out all of the negatives, but it will still not change where I am at. So, why not just focus on the good things that I have and make my life feel so much better.
              Teague, you spent all day driving on Saturday just to see me for four hours and then drove back to San Francisco after our visit. I don not think you realize how much that really meant to me. We had a lot of laughs and still managed to have some fun. I think you can put you and me in any situation and we will still have fun. Thank you for showing me how much you care about me by sacrificing your time and driving down to see me. It truly is very appreciated.
              So, as for my birthday, my group members made a card and they all signed it. It was a very cool gesture. Then I had the birthday song sang to me in the mornign at our community meeting, and that was very special. We had cheeseburgers for lunch and to me that was perfect.
              I also got to perform some stand up at the other camp! I practiced some of my new jokes to see if they worked. The place was packed and I was so freaking nervous. But it felt so good to get back on the stage, and when I saw so many people laughing it really made me feel special. I knew these guys needed to laugh. I know now that there day was a little bit better also. It is such a great feeling.
              Also, I plotted a revenge on some of the Senior Members and it went perfectly. Lets just say that one of the senior members had to do a balerina dance infront of the entire community of 100 people. So focussing on all of the positives on my birthday, I didnt have that bad of a birthday. I also got to talk to my girlfriend on the phone and I got to talk to my kids. Again, it wasnt the best birthday, but it wasnt the worst.
              Thank you all again for your continued support. It is greatly appreciated. If I can just close out by reminding you all to stop focussing on what you do not have and focus on what you have, I am sure your day will be a little bit better.
              Rickie, you and I are have a special bond. It is only getting stronger by each day. I can not wait to come home to you babe so that we can stop cyber-dating! hahahahha You know I love you and am very appreciative of you. Thank you for just being you!
              Thank you everyone.
              Live Everyday Always Free
              LEA

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              Allen Wheeler Looking forward to seeing you back on the stage out here, can’t say I wanted to be able to catch the Birthday show! Stay positive and speedy return!

               

              Tom Bickle

              Tom Bickle Anyone know of or where we can send him a note these days? Ive lost track

               

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              Rickie Holley

              Rickie Holley We do have a very special bond and I know that at times things are hard, but we can get through this together. WE GOT THIS! I’m glad you got to do something you enjoy on your birthday. I love you!! xoxo

               

              Heather Morales

              Heather MoralesLaughter and Gratitude are two strong qualities you have. Keep up the positive thoughts! Making peeps laugh is a major part of who “U” are and you come across that naturally, for sure! I’m glad your hanging in there….it’s almost over.

              Letter from prison #19
              Well, folks….I still am around. Our computers have been down so it has been very hard to send you guys some of my letters. It has been such an inconvenience not having email, but I have been dealing with it as best as I can.
              I have had a very tough week. The program is very hard and challenging, but I am confident in myself that I am going to get through it. Everyday seems to get a bit easier.
              I have been doing a lot of reflecting lately. Recently I have put a lot of pressure on to someone whom I really cared a lot about. The pressure became too much for her and she had to remove herself from the situation. I became very sad and angry. I felt abandoned. For a couple of days I felt like my world colapsed. She was there for me everyday and she would always make time for me, however, I took it for granted. Now that she has removed herself from this situation, I have really had to dig deep and find myself. I am learning a lot about myself. I am learning that yes her being here for me was a bonus, it was not a necessity. At times, I felt I could not get through this on my own and that I needed her to help me. That was not fair of me to put that pressure on her. I have realized, that I put myself here, and I am the one that has to get myself out of here. No one should ever have to depend on someone so much. It becomes selfish and irresponsible.
              So I am now letting the world know, though I am truly at my rock bottom now, I will prove to myself and everyone reading this, that I can turn this around on my own. I am going to show the world that I can come from having nothing, to fulfilling my goals and dreams. So remember this….remember the time when Leaf the Comedian told you that you will all see me again, and I will be bigger and better than ever. I am very motivated right now and I am doing this because I can do it…
              Rickie, I am very sorry for the pressure I put on you. I never meant to come across selfish.
              To everyone else…get ready! I only have about 6 more months to go!! I am more than half way done.
              I am on the down side. I have been writing a lot and I am ready to come home and share my story!
              And remember…when you think you are at rock bottom and you think that things can not get worst…think again, cause it always can. Be blessed with everything you have.
              I love and miss you all very much.
              Live Everyday Always Free
              LEAF

              Julie CantrellStay strong! Prayers for you! I know you will do this and I can’t wait to see you rise from the ashes!!
              Holly Pfeifer
              Holly Pfeifer😦. Keep your chin up !! In 6 months you’ll be making people laugh their asses off and I hope to hell you’ll be doin you’re other talent too because I’m in need:)
              Tim Deckard
              Tim Deckarddam bro just stay positive and keep your head up it will all work out in the end
              Holly Pfeifer
              Holly PfeiferAll of us at the dental office are waiting for ya to work out our knots 🙂.
              Zanda Cohen
              Chase Zurek
              Chase ZurekStay strong buddy, we’ll see ya soon.
              J.d. Butler
              J.d. ButlerNO CROSS..NO CROWN,YOU WILL BE FINE BUDDY
              Mario A. Montes
              Mario A. MontesYoure gettin there. Time truly does heal all wounds. Youre in my prayers.
              Kat Dooley
              Krista Burton
              Krista BurtonHang in there you can do it! Hugs!
              Melanie Chadwell
              Melanie ChadwellPrayers for peace in your heart tonight.
              Donna Washington
              Donna WashingtonLeaf honey, you could not have written that at a better time. I soooo needed to hear this. If you can do it, I can too. You are my inspiration and as of this very moment, I am going to quit feeling sorry for myself! Thank you so much! Your friend, Kathy Smith, aka: Donna Washington, Donju Wishucud.
              Melanie Chadwell
              Myki Angeline
              Donna Washington
              Donna WashingtonI lost my job and my house on the same day last month and all I have been doing is wandering around crying. It stops now!
              Rick Pulido
              Rick PulidoDon’t let go, they win that way. Easier said then done but if you can endure, you will be stronger than most. Read stories of people that have made it from the bottom. Read some philosophy, some poetry. Your body is there but let your mind travel the world and time.
              Melanie Chadwell
              Melanie ChadwellThis is what needed to happen for you to find the real you.
              Rickie Holley
              Rickie HolleyI am and will still always be here for you. We came into each others lives for a reason. You will always hold a special place in my heart! xoxoxo
              Joseph Mijares
              Amber McKean Palma
              Amber McKean PalmaLeaf you have been in my heart and prayers. I’m glad to hear your growing through all this. That’s the only way anyone can truly grow. You can do all things through christ our Lord. He is all you need to make it through the lions den. Stay strong and remember there are a lot of people rooting for you and who love you. Olive juice! Lol….. remember 😉
              Mordecai Monroe
              Mordecai MonroeYou have pen in hand. Keep it there as your sword. Much to gain from this…..keep your pen flowing.
              Wendy Jacobsen Garrett
              Wendy Jacobsen GarrettStay Strong and hang on, you’re almost out!!!
              Paul Vlahos
              Paul Vlahoslove you bud stay tough and remember you are cared about by many people
              David Heinig
              David HeinigI can’t wait till your out. I think about you a lot even though we personally have never met :/ I miss your talk show too I hope you stay positive!
              Michelle Shelley D
              Michelle Shelley DYou two will figure this out. It isn’t the end. Treat each other with respect and love and it will all work out.
              Stacey Bruno
              Stacey BrunoWe are always stronger in the face of bad times. You will get thru this. You are a strong person. Can’t wait to see ya.
              Stephanie Monica Soriano
              Stephanie Monica SorianoGlad to Know you r going good!
              Brek Peterson

              Brek Peterson · 2 mutual friends

              When in the prison shower if anybody’s soap hits the floor and somebody tells you to pick it up do this! you drop yours say. Hell no you get my soap. Then pray he doesn’t.
              Shannon Rodriguez
              Jennifer L King
              Jennifer L KingKeep your eye on the rpize…you can do it Leaf…six months to go.
              Abi Charis MT
              Abi Charis MTHang in there friend! You can do this! You are so much stronger than you even know yet!

              Letter from prison #20
              What’s up world!!!
              I just finished reading all of your comments from the last letter I wrote! Thank you guys so much! I really enjoyed reading all of your responses. It definitely helped me. Things are going better for me. I have really been taking a lot of time to just focus on myself and working on getting home. I have been doing a lot more writing. It seems to help to get rid of any negative thoughts that I may have. I have been turning my negative thoughts into some really good jokes. I am doing another show tonight for the inmates. I am excited. They are shipping me to the other prison to perform. People have been coming up to me asking me to make them laugh or to just talk to me because they are in a bad mood and want me to cheer them up. It feels good to be able to help others. But I am also taking time for myself too. I am really digging deep inside of myself to learn to be stronger and to make sure that my confidence doesn’t slip. When you are locked up, everything gets magnified and you feel so helpless. When you feel helpless, you become dependent on others, and when you become dependent on others, you really enable yourself and take away your drive an focus, and when you take away your drive and focus you sell your hair to a wig shop. Don’t sell your hair to a wig shop…get DirecTV!!! hahahaha trying to get my $100 dollar referral!
              But really what I was trying to say is that I have been doing a lot of self talk and self evaluation. Though things are hard and very difficult at times, I know the man I am and I can handle anything as long as I stay focused. Bad things happen to people. It is how you overcome the bad situations that define you. Donna Washington….your response stood out to me the most. It is amazing to think that I inspired you, and I truly am really honored that you would say that to me. I am just a man that is in prison and am trying to get home to my kids. But if I can inspire someone through my experiences then all of this has been worth it. Donna, stay strong! I know it has to be hard to lose your job and house all in the same day, but use it to motivate you. Use your rock bottom to inspire yourself. Don’t dwell on the situation, focus on the you and how you can overcome the situation. Every bad situation gives you two choices. You can either lay there and feel sorry for yourself, or you can learn from it and allow you to drive you to turn that negative situation into something so positive. There is a reason why you lost your job….God has another job waiting for you, but you have to find it. It isn’t going to come to you.
              You are exactly where God wants you to be. So embrace it and get to work. Love yourself and inspire yourself. Show yourself, that you can overcome this! You can do it. If I can get through this, then you can get through your situation. And that goes for everyone. If you are at your rock bottom, find away to inspire yourself and get yourself out of it. I know you can do it. I am proof that it can be done. I still have a long way to go, and it is still going to be rough. But I cant change the circumstances, only the attitude behind my thoughts. And I am really thankful for this experience and I know I am better for it.
              I am almost home!!!
              Thank you all for your amazing support. Please tell a friend about me and invite them to join us. I have a story, and I want to tell it to you all.
              I love you all and miss you guys tremendously.
              Ill see you guys soon!
              and remember to
              Live Everyday Always Free
              Leaf
              see you guys next week

              Krista BurtonVery wise words! You can do this! Stay strong! Hugs to you!

              Steph Garcia

              Steph GarciaLove reading your letters here…can’t wait to see ya!

              Holly Griffin

              Holly GriffinOne more week closer to being home. You’re doing great!

              Myki Angeline

              Myki AngelineXoXo – I need to write you a long ass letter. LOL

              Justin Nichols Ryan

              Justin Nichols RyanGlad you’re doing good and staying strong brother can’t wait to see you preform again much respect for you:-)

              Julie Cantrell

              Julie CantrellSo glad to hear you are stronger today than the last time you wrote. Hang in there and make them laugh so hard at your show that they blow boogers!

              Keith Little

              Keith LittleLeaf keep the positive thoughts going .. I was there with you at MDCLA .. Been out for 2 months. With my kids and loving life again. Signed “the Captain”

              Jennifer L King

              Jennifer L KingI’m confident you are gonna do amazing things once yer out. God’s gotta plan for you.

              Rickie Holley

              Rickie HolleyI know your girls can’t wait for you to come home. This will all be over soon. I’m happy to hear you are doing so good!

              Harrell Butch Fischer

              Harrell Butch FischerAtta Boy Leaf……. Think a u All the time Hommie…… Soon Bra Soon…

              Sactown CakeLady

              Sactown CakeLadyGlad to see you have God in your life.

              Joshua Sunday

              Joshua Sundayway to go bro!!! keep ur head up and keep doin what ur doin ::)))

              WillieMac Comedian

              WillieMac ComedianRight On Leaf The-Comedian. Good to read these updates and to learn you are hanging strong. Hurry up and get your ass home…

              Stacey Bruno

              Stacey BrunoWay to be positive!! that’s the best way to get thru rough times. Can’t wait for you to come back, and to see you on stage again. 🙂

              Salina Daniels

              Salina DanielsGlad You’re Feeling Better and have a chance to make others laugh like you’re so good at doing ! Hang in there Bud its Almost Over !

              Letter from Prison #21

              YO!

              Today is 9/11, a day I will never forget! It is the day my daughter Ayriana was born. It was one of the most disgusting and disturbing things that I have ever had to witness! A human coming out of another human being is just not normal! And then there was all of the yelling and the screaming! The high pitched screaming, the cursing, the insults…..and that was all coming from me! She was calm and collective…I was yelling “Where is my epideral? Why does she get one? Look how calm she is!!! She is so selfish!!!”
              But after all of the drama, my daughter came out…..and she is one of the best things that has ever happened to me. I miss her so much!! I am making a promise right now to the world that this will be the last and only birthday that I ever miss Ayriana. Poppa loves you so very much and I hope you enjoyed your day today sweethart!

              I read all of your responses again you guys. Thank you all for taking the time to respond to my letters. It is good to see that you guys are still reading them.
              Every week that I write to you guys is a another week that I get closer to performing for you guys. I know we are going to sell out my come back show! I feel it. I have so much to tell you guys and that night we are all going to hang out and have some fun. I am thinking the show is going to be around April 20th. That weekend. I am going to be sending an email to Laughs Unlimited to see if I can get that Friday reserved for me. So Jenny if you are reading this, expect an email from me shortly.
              Well, not a whole lot to report right now. I work out three times a day now. I am up at 5:30am every morning and I do 140 dips, 140 push ups, and I walk a mile and a half. Then in the after noon more push ups and pull ups and jump rope. ( we dont get to use the weights until the weekends) Then at night Ill run 5 miles. I can run a mile in 6 minutes and 55 seconds. That is my fastest time. I am down to a solid 185lbs which is a good weight for me. I have lost a total of 45lbs…..basically I have lost a five year old. So when I look at the benefits of prison, this weight loss has to be up there. I am the healthiest I have been since I was about 25. I have tried so many other diets but nothing seemed to work until I tried the PRISON diet…the all natural weight loss solution!
              The program is getting harder, but I am still managing. I keep doing dumb mistakes and having to apologize to the community. Oh and get this….I am the chairman of The Cultural Diversity Committee…that means I have to make sure that people sit with different races and cultures during chow…do you know how hard it is to tell a group of black guys that they cant sit together??? hahahaha Not exactly the easiet thing to do! But they want us to break out of this mold so that when we are released we are exposed to different cultures.
              Like I said…I have a lot to talk to you guys about….more will be said at my comeback show! You are not going to want to miss this.
              Well, Ill talk to you guys next week. Stay positive!! Everything that you are struggling with right now is because God knows you can handle it. I know for me sometimes I wished he didnt have so much confidence in me!!
              I love you all. I ll talk to you soon.
              Remember to always
              Live Everyday Always Free
              LEAF

              Keith LittleKeep strong Leaf , I will be looking for more info on your return show.

              Kimberlee Kline Wilson

              Kimberlee Kline WilsonGlad to hear you are staying strong! Positive thoughts and prayers to you buddy! Looking forward to your comeback show! Keep the posts coming…

              Jason Vasquez
              Krista Burton

              Krista Burtonstay strong your doing awesome! hugs

              Shannon Rodriguez

              Shannon RodriguezYou seem much better this week YAY! good to know =)

              Rickie Holley

              Rickie HolleyIt was so nice to hear your voice today. I missed it! Only a little over 6 months and you will be home. YOU GOT THIS!

              Kevin Dublinske
              Harrell Butch Fischer
              Trisha Porch

              Trisha Porchstay strong. thinking of you always. trisha n jay

              Holly Pfeifer

              Holly PfeiferSo nice to read such a positive letter!! Good to hear you’re so healthy and strong. You’re gonna need it to work out these boulders. I hope hope hope you’re coming back to that !! We miss ya over there!!! 🙂

              WillieMac Comedian

              WillieMac ComedianRight on Leaf! Making lemonade out of this detour. Now your a lean mean ambassador to the masses, teaching tolerance and racial harmony….. Good Luck with that. Miss ya Man. Can’t wait to see you out here tearing up the stage!

              Letter from Prison #22

              Its me again!!

              Thank you all for your comments. I love reading them. They really help me out. Things are going well. I am on the down side of this now! IMarch will be here before I know it. I know the holidays are going to be hard, but once I get through that then I will be coming down the stretch. Not too much to report this week. I have just been working out, doing my program and well working out. I have been doing 200 push ups and 200 bar dips every morning at 5:45am…..its crazy to me!! If you would have told me a year ago that I would be up at 5:30 am every morning I would have laughed at you…let aalone push ups…I couldnt even do 10 push ups before I came in!!!
              The program has been opening my eyes to a lot of things. A lot of faults that I have. Not so much faults but the way I use to think. I use to think very irrationally. Now I am challenging my thoughts and learning to think before I act which has been a big struggle for me. But I am taking the program seriously and am doing pretty good. There is rumor that they are going to make me a big brother soon. That means I will help some of the new guys that come into the program. As I said before it is like highschol and so in two weeks there will be another fresh group of guys. Every 8 weeks you graduate to the next level. I will be going to the third level in two weeks. Pretty exciting. Its cool to see some of the changes I have made as well. So all in all, this experience, though hard, has been very good to me and I plan on continuing my growth as I progress.
              Again, not too much has been going on with me. Just focussing on myself and getting myself out of here so I can go home to my girls.
              I ll talk to you guys soon.
              I love you all.
              Live Everyday Alway Free
              LEAF

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              Viccie Saywhat Fritz you stay strong and move along!!

              Pamela K. Al-Shabazz

              Pamela K. Al-ShabazzMiss you ’round here dude! Good to see you posting. Prayers going up…. Hurry home to your babies!

              Stephen Cumbey

              Stephen CumbeyWe’re still here, brotha. Stay strong, get yer self right, and don’t drop the soap…

              Gavin Myers

              Gavin Myershang tough bud. cant wait to see how you come out the other side.

              Krista Burton

              Krista BurtonKeep up the good work and stay strong! Hugs!

              Janelle Murphéy

              Janelle MurphéyMiss you LEAF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Love you lots man!!!!

              Jason Vasquez

              Jason VasquezNice! get super ripped, cant wait for you to get home. we have so much to do… your doing great, keep your spirits up.. your always in our hearts and prayers.

              Jeffrey Peterson
              Holly Griffin

              Holly GriffinI’m very proud of you for using this time to better yourself, instead of feeling sorry for yourself.

              Shaylene Renee'

              Shaylene Renee’Baby hang in there. We cannot wait to see you!!!! Miss you my friend

              Gina Ritter

              Gina RitterWe’re almost the same age, but as a mom I think about you a lot. Wishing you well (in my head) always.

              Kat Dooley

              Kat DooleyI am glad to hear that you are learning about yourself through this fucked up experience! Keep your head up!

              WillieMac Comedian

              WillieMac ComedianThanks For Sharing! You can give a guy some hope, besides isn’t suppose to keep your ass in line….

              Harrell Butch Fischer

              Harrell Butch FischerMiss u Brother..!!! Hang in there.

              Gary Goings

              Gary GoingsLife isn’t the same.

              Vicci Voorhees Nolan
              Rickie Holley

              Rickie HolleyHappy to hear you are doing so good and getting through all this!

              Jessica Seivane

              Jessica SeivaneMarch will come sooner than you know!

              Daniel Humbarger

              Daniel HumbargerI guess I better start working out. I can’t have “Leaf The Comedian” making me look fat. On a serious note, it sounds like you’re handling things well considering the circumstances. Keep up the positive thoughts. You’ll be out and this will all be behind you in no time.

              Gary Goings

              Gary Goingshe doesn’t want to think about anything being behind him right now.

              Kimberlee Kline Wilson
              Gwendolyn Shreve Pol

              Gwendolyn Shreve PolGlad you are doing well and progressing, hang tough!

              WillieMac Comedian

              WillieMac Comedianhere’s to looking toward the finish line.

              Letter from Prison # 23

              Whats up world!
              I just wanted to write a quick letter to you guys to say hello. I also wanted to wish to Happy Birthdays to two individuals. On the 24th it was my daughter Ameliya’a birthday! She is 6 and getting to be such a little lady. So Happy Birthday little one. I hope you enjoyed your special day. Poppa loves and misses you very much. This will be the last birthday I ever miss. I PROMISE!!
              On the 1st of October, it was my brother’s birthday. We have not talked in a very long time. I know you have been going through a lot and i want you toknow that I pray for you and your family. I hope things get better for you. I miss you and your family. Give them all my love.
              Well I think for halloween I am going to be a gardner!! Should be a good costume. Let me know what you are going to be and I would love to see you guys in your halloween outfits! So take some pics and send them to me. Everyone that sends me pictures of them in their Halloween pics will get two tickets to my return show. Thought it would be a fun way for you guys to share with me your costumes. Plus I know the guys in here would get a kick out of eeing them too.
              Well take care…I gotta run and well…stay here.
              Miss you all
              Live Everyday Always Free
              LEAF

              Stephen de Johnstonwtf? when did you go in?
              Rickie Holley
              Rickie HolleyIt was nice to talk with you yesterday. You sounded really good. Miss you!
              Harrell Butch Fischer
              Harrell Butch FischerWudup Brother…?? Sounds like ur finding a way to get through all of this… Your almost home bro… Keep those 3 chins up hommie…oh snap ur prolly down to one now huh… :)) miss ya Bra..
              Krista Burton
              Krista BurtonStay strong and positive! Hugs to you!!
              Julie Cantrell
              Julie CantrellSo Glad to hear that you are doing well. Hang in there and keep strong. You have some birthdays to make up for when you get back.
              Prison Letter #24

              Hey world
              Well this is the hardest letter that I will have written to you guys so far. On Sunday night I found out that my friend of 26 years died in a motorcycle accident. This guy was a brother to me. He was my roomate for a few years, and he lived with my parents for a while while he was trying to get back on his feet. He lived with my brother and I at one point as well. I have known this guy since 7th grade. He was a true friend. He was always interested in everything that I was doing. He came to my very first comedy performance and watched me bomb terribly. He supported everything I did and encouraged me. He was there for me when I was having relationship problems. He was always there for me no matter what the circumstances was. He never judged me or thought less of me at any time. He got me a job when I needed one. He was a big part of my life and I am so hurt and terribly sad that he is no longer with us. I never got to say bye to him and I feel really bad that I will not be able to attend his funeral. He was such a good dude and a special person. If he asked you How are you doing, he really wanted to know that answer.
              Life is short. I am not promised tomorrow. My poor decision that landed me here has really effected so many people in my life. I am very upset at myself for not being able to be there for him or his family. I am mad that I can not attend my best-friend’s funeral. Just when you think you are at rockbottom, God finds a way to show you that you are not.
              I am blessed. I know I am not in a good place right now, but I also know that it can be worse. I am very grateful that I have my family to help me through this time of my life.
              I see so many people go to prison and just lay around and do nothing while they are here. To me prison is a time for you to correct yourself and become a better person for the experience. I am taking the time to better myself and learn new things about me. I am not allowing any time to pass, to waste away. I will be a better person for this experience. Life is very short. Take advantage of everything that life has to offer you because you never know when it will be taken from you.
              I love you all very much and I want to thank you all for your continued support.
              Dave, man, I cant believe you are gone. It still hasnt hit me. I have cried alot and it still doesnt feel real. I miss your goofy laugh and your desire to live. You were a good friend to me and I just hope I was just as good of a friend to you as you were to me. I know you are with your mom now ans I am at peace with that. It just hurts so much to know that I will not see you when I get home. I love you man. You inspired me to keep with the comedy gig. You supported me and came to my shows and watched me grow as a comedian. For that I thank you. I will live the rest of my life for the both of us. I will bring you on stage with me each show. I will not allow any opportunities to pass me by. You are and will always be my inspiration.
              Rest in Peace Big Dog! I love you!
              LEAF
              Live Everyday Alwas Free

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              Abigail Charis Nagengast
              Abigail Charis NagengastSo sorry for your loss 😦 keep hanging in there man!
              Krista Burton
              Krista BurtonHugs to you in this time stay strong my friend!
              Shannon Rodriguez
              Shannon RodriguezI just heard. Troy I am sorry for your loss. And I am positive you were just as good a friend to him as he was to you.
              Shay Toles
              Shay TolesPrayers and condolences
              Holly Griffin
              Holly GriffinBig hugs, I’m so sorry for your loss.
              Harrell Butch Fischer
              Harrell Butch FischerHang in there hommie.. Ur almost home bra…
              Ebony Leino

              Ebony Leino · 4 mutual friends

              I’m so sorry for your lost!
              Cindy Bryant Hayes
              Cindy Bryant HayesMy thoughts go out to you and all who knew and loved him.
              Melanie Chadwell
              Melanie ChadwellI’m so sorry. Wish I could hug you.
              Kimberlee Kline Wilson
              Kimberlee Kline Wilsonsorry for your loss…i will keep his family in my prayers
              Julie Cantrell
              Julie CantrellSuch a tragic loss, and I am so sorry for you. Praying that your memories in life together will bring you comfort.
              Connie Samye Osgood
              Connie Samye OsgoodYoull get good stuff to use too .. sorry about your friend xo
              Amanda Bonham
              Amanda BonhamThat was a beautiful message Leaf The-Comedian. So sorry for loss friend.
              WillieMac Comedian
              WillieMac ComedianHe will clearly live on in your heart and soul. Sorry for the loss Leaf, sometimes stuff sucks.
              Ken Shames
              Ken Shamesive had too many people pass in the last 12 months more than any time i can remember, sorry for your loss
              Joseph Mijares
              Joseph MijaresSorry for your loss stay strong
              Kristen Frisk Christensen
              Kristen Frisk ChristensenI’m so sorry Leaf. It sounds like God recruited one of his best…hang in there friend and know we’re all pulling for you and can’t wait for you to get out in March.
              Shaylene Renee'
              Shaylene Renee’You have found the positive in the situation, although it is a huge sadness you will be a better man and he will still be right there by your side even closer watching you achieve. He’s going to be that pat on the back you feel every great while. Keep strong darling. 🙂
              Rich Brockman
              Rich BrockmanWell, some of us go before others, some just dont seem fair, but, like your letter, i remember them full of life and the times shared, because when you are done sifting thru the bullshit of life, all you have in the end are memories of your experiences. Keep the happy ones and set sail to the sad one my friend.
              Vicci Voorhees Nolan
              Vicci Voorhees NolanSo sorry for your loss, Leaf…
              Shannan Dublinske
              Shannan DublinskeSo sorry for your loss Leaf. Try and keep your head up.
              Pamela K. Al-Shabazz
              Pamela K. Al-ShabazzSo truly sorry for your loss. Prayers going up for you & all of the family.
              D Brad StCyr
              D Brad StCyrSorry to hear that. It is truly sad to lose a good friend.
              Chris Goings
              Chris GoingsIt was good to talk to you again. Glad to hear that you’re doing ok! Not too much longer to go! I’ll talk to you soon! Love ya Bro!
              Brandon Matteoni
              Brandon Matteoni Sad to hear Troy. Sorry for your loss and his family as well. Hang in there dude. Getting closer

               Letter from Prison #25

              Tis the Season!!
              It is the holiday time. A time to spend with loved ones, family, and at times with people you don’t even like. Christmas parties and ugly sweaters, and don’t forget the continuous overbearing Christmas songs….but it is the season. As I am far away from my family and loved ones I find strength in knowing that I am very fortunate to have family that love me and friends that care about me. I am grateful for life!. There is so much of it that I took advantage and it took me to come to prison to find the meaning of life.
              I have been thinking a lot about who I am. I have been doing a lot of thinking about life itself and I would like to share with you my thoughts.
              This is Life! This is your life! Do what you LOVE, and do it often. If you do not like something, change it. If you do not like your job QUIT! If you don’t have enough time, stop watching T.V. If you are looking for the love of your life, STOP; They will be waiting for you when you start doing things you love! Stop over analyzing, LIFE IS SIMPLE! ALL emotions are beautiful! When you eat, appreciate EVERY LAST BITE! Open your mind, arms, and heart to new things and people, we are united in our differences. Ask the next person you see what their passion is, and share your inspiring dream with them. TRAVEL OFTEN; getting lost will help you find yourself. Some opportunities only come once, SEIZE THEM! Life is about the people you meet, and the things you create with them so go out and start creating. LIFE IS SHORT!!! LIVE YOUR DREAM AND SHARE YOUR PASSION!!!!

              I have received some letters from you folks. Some of you have told me that I have inspired you and that I have made an impact in your life, and that I motivate you. This to me is so amazing and it humbles me. It makes me feel like everything that I have had to go through is worth it. If I can impact one person’s life in a positive manner, then I have lived my life. I feel I have been placed on this planet to help people, either through laughter or inspiration. I was lost….coming to prison I have been able to find myself. I have been able to see who I truly am, and the things that I didn’t like, I was given the opportunity to work on it and make the changes so that I can be the most positive person that I can be. I see this experience as a blessing. I plan on taking full advantage of this and living my life to its fullest. I have a long road ahead of me, and I am sure many can relate to me, but I am not giving up! I will prevail. I am given a new start and no matter how low I am to the bottom, I do not plan on sticking around. I WILL be on top! I will bring laughter to the world, encouragement to our youth, and I will spread smiles to my enemies!
              Thank you all for your encouragement. It truly means so much to me.
              Enjoy your family this holiday season. Life is so precious…you never know how long you have left.
              I love you all and I ll be home soon!!! (105 days from today)
              I cant wait to see you all at my come back show. It will be a night I will never forget!
              Remember, Live Everyday Always Free!!
              LEAF

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              Holly Pfeifer

              Holly Pfeifer That is freakin amazing to read !!! So glad your continuing to kick ass !!

               

              Melanie Chadwell

              Melanie Chadwell Pretty amazing self discovery. You are quite the inspiration.

               

              Mindy Van Egdon

              Mindy Van Egdon Happy Holidays Leaf.

               

              Abigail Charis Nagengast

              Abigail Charis Nagengast We sure do miss you! Thank you for your inspiring words! I have discovered all that you talking about. I live my life to the fullest now and its a blessed life. I’m so happy you are almost done with this really tough time. Hang in there friend cant wait to see you in 105 days 🙂

               

              Harrell Butch Fischer
              Julie Cantrell

              Julie Cantrell Merry Christmas! It has been a long journey for you and your family, but you are making it!

               

              Krista Burton

              Krista Burton You are an amazing person. It has been a privilege to see this journey you have been on. You are an inspiration with the attitude you have chosen. I hope to maybe see you perform when you are out! Hugs and stay strong!!!! Merry Christmas!!!

               

              Amy C. Robards
              Amy C. Robards Troy
              I miss you & your hands more than you will ever know! I think of you often & I can’t wait until Jan 22 2015!! I have big tears in my eyes reading your beautiful message. I read a quote recently “Circumstances do not make a man they reveal him” You are an inspiration to all! Lots Love & big hugs to you!

               

              Amy C. Robards

              Amy C. Robards Wait you are coming home way earlier than I thought!! So happy!!

               

              Jimmie Dave Menezes

              Jimmie Dave Menezes can’t wait to see ya Leaf

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